Happy birthday COJW*

NOV 12 use to be a special day that belong to only the 2 of us. But since start of the yr, I know it no longer the same. Some ppl let go of things easily, while some ponder left ponder right, and they back to the same old ground again. I know I have tried very hard to start a new rs, to 4get the past, to move on happily, to work hard etc etc, but just now everything came pouring back again... Those 3 yrs of celebration was meaningful, memorable, loving... But today on her 21st, her major celebration is on without me. Simply put it tis way, in her life there is no longer a place for me.

Wat bout her in my life? There is always a special place reserve for her. n I REALLY MEAN IT. Love is such a complicated thing. We can move on strongly ahead, but once a major date or important date came bout, we are back to square one again. =( Is this worth it? I really dun know.. Sometime I really wonder to myself, have i really 4gotten bout her? Have I already move on? No doubt, I have already move on strongly but there is alway something missing. FEEL. I dun know how I can get this feel back. I have try new rs but it fail miserably.... Wat do I need to do? =( Maybe i wake up fine tmr? Is this another of my emo night? or mood swing nite? =(

Today is her big day but I cant help being emo.. If ya still reading my blog, just wanta wish ya happy 21st and all the best for everything tat ya doing and going to do... one day, maybe one day, we may meet again. Hope that you may be bless with the happines and love that I fail to give it to you.. Once again, Happy 21ST to COJW..

UPdating soon*

Realised tat I not been bloggin much lately lol.. I will update my blog soon.. maybe it time for some 'renovation work' to be done.. add in new applications, new songs, new background, new pics, new themes etc....

Anybody wanta help me? =)