MiSsInG u*

Wake up in the morning and first thing tat came into my mind is YOU.


Ya told me to give up on you cos ya wanta me to move on
BUT where am I now?


Ya told me tat you knew me well, then do ya know wat I really feeling now?


Like wat ya told me the other time, everything had it pull and push factors. Are we really over and done with?

I wonder where YOU are. The days we had and the songs we sang together.......

IF...if...IF...if...IF*

IF I could turn back time or be given a chance again:

I'm never gonna say goodbye
cause I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
and I'd swear it all over again
and I I'm never gonna treat you bad
cause I never wanna see you sad
i swear to share your joys and you pain
and I'd swear it all over again....

MeAnInGfUl sOnG*

BUSTED - LOSING YOU

sitting here alone thinking it through trying to convince myself

that i'mnot losing you,

or can't you just forget the things i said

i was angry at the time but now i cleared my head

it was so strong, where did it all go wrong

so tell me why, i'm swimming against the tide

and i'm praying for a lifeline,

cos i'm losing you

so tell me why, you took care enough to try

are you giving up this fight, i can't stand,wont stand, losing you

you don't have to say a word its in your eyes

what can i do to convince you we need more time

and i know i may have made a few mistakes

but losing you is just too much for me to take

it was so strong, where did it all go wrong

so tell me why, i'm swimming against the tide

and i'm praying for a lifeline,

cos i'm losing you

Activities*

Had quite alot of activities this week after my work to keep me occupy..

24/06/09 (wed)
MJ with wei min yong xin and GG after my work over at wei min's place till 11pm.

25/06/09 (thur)
Soccer at Bedok reservoir with darrel, wei min, franky and rest of the group. Msg hoon hoon that I was around her place and soon we ended up playin MJ after soccer over at wei min's place again.. Haa.. Been sometime since I met up with hoon also lol.. Alway busy with EDM hor? haa.. Anyway MJ this time with ruth, hoon and ming zhi... MJ all de way from 11plus to next morning 5plus lol.. When I reached home, it was already 6.30am! Dam Shag lol..

26/06/09 (fri)
Suppose to play a friendly match over in tengah after work as the warehouse ppl had book the field for use.. However due to CAT 2 stauts extended till 5plus, alot of my camp mates decided to give this match a miss.. Same for me though.. =) Knocked off at 4pm and was told to leave the base immediately as night shift ppl is comin in.. Due to H1N1, we are divided into 2 shift work... In case one shift kana quarantine, the other shift is still ready to support daily operations.. Thus, stayin back for soccer wont go down too well for my OIC and FWO lol.. Should be stayin inhouse tonight ba.. Still kana tired even though I just woke up! Parade tmr and next week is NE SHOW 1 where the sec and pri sch students will be comin to watch us! How 'excited' lol.. >_<

Feelings*

After our breakup again, I heard alot of different opinions and comments by ppl all around me.. I really must not ever repeat my mistake again. Read through ellen's blog in which she commented "this gf of his is so in love with him yet.. he is playing a fool.. keep breaking up and patching back with her" I just wanta say tat I am not playin a fool or taking ppl for granted or simply just be with someone cos I am desperate etc... I guess some of my closer friends around me knew wat type of person I am.. Maybe I kinda touched easily by someone? Maybe I one tat dun know how to reject a person? Maybe I one tat fuck-up? I must really reflect myself again in the mirror... There no room for mistakes again.. DEFINITELY NO!

When I think back about it, maybe wat rx and the others say is true after all.. When things really happen between both party, it is not easy to be back together again.. Rx asked me if I really did like min min when we were back together the second time and I told her yes, definitely had some feelings for her.. But these few days make me realise that I not into this r/s as what I expected.. Not the type of r/s feelings that normal couple is talkin about. I just know that I hurted her yet again.. I REALLY SORRY.

Maybe up till now, I still have not get over her, 050605? Memories still embedded in my heart... But I know she had another person in her life already..

Why must we always lose something in our life, then we will know how important they matter to us?

Mistake*

I hurted her yet again. It has nothin to do with her but me! Happen once, happen twice... Wat de hell am I really thinking? =( I am sorry min min... REALLY sorry.. No matter how mani times I say it, it wont help and make ya feel beta... BUT this is the onli thing I can say to you..

Time to grow up and move on ZM... I cant carry on like tis right? I have to learn to move on from the past.. Before accepting a new rs, I should have completely let go of the previous rs! I fail to do so and thus, resulted in this situation again! Been pondering over this for sometime and the best situation is for us to seperate.

Sometime I just wonder why am I such an emo guy? I dun think that how a guy should be... No offence to the females but I just such a failure. Failure in my 3 yr rs, Failure in this rs..... When will I learn to be wise and not to hurt other ppl again? Given the chance again, I wanta turn back time and go back to 18yr old - when there is no such thing as rs problem for me! haiz..

RX, HOON n PJ thank for your concern.. I really appreciate it... =)

Time to go to bed I guess.. I should not be thinking so much now...

能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了...

THE Facts about love*

*You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.

*Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.

*Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.

*Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.

*Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.

*Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.

*Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.

*Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.

If Love is painful,

And tortures us so much,

Why do we Love?

WHY?

Simply because when we love someone, feelings of LOVE overcome our pain and sufferings.

when YOU are GONE*

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear

to always get me through the day

And make it ok

I miss you

3DAYS MC*

Went for soccer yesterday night over at Kallang cage and got injured in the process again! WTF lol.. Just recovered from my ankle strain and now my whole leg 'armed' with scratches and swollen muscle... I guess the THAI player tat injured me knew I pose a potential threat to them and tat why he injured me lol.. haha... BUt I really lucky tat he was not wearing a boots with metal studs if not I really gone case... If he life his leg higher a bit towards me knee cap, I CONFRIM DIE!!! Blessin in disguise for me le lol.. PhEw... Anyway the cage was nice and fun to play with.. Yesterday football at the cage was like Singapore vs Thailand lol.. hahaa. =) GG dropped by with his gf after their dinner or supper lol.. He confirm got urge to play one lol.. Tat pathetic look on his face say it all... sorry dude.. My heart goes out to you.. heee..

Thanks to yx and some of the guys who gave me medical attention straight away.. The doc tat I went to see just now said that there was no infection for me leg and tat I need to rest more and lift up my left leg highes for proper blood circulation... She gave me 3days of MC lol.. Lift up my left leg? Wat can I possbily do when I lift my legs up? watch tv whole day ah? >_<

So anyone wanta play MJ pls come up to West side play with me k? Bored to stay at home one lol.. =( PLS DUN ASK ME PLAY SOCCER OR SHOPPING HOR! I will be back soon..

BTW Feel free to visit me! hahaa

The circle show my swollen muscle lol.. =(

ANNI WITH BEBE*

Celebrated our first month anni on monday 15/06/09! Thanks bebe for the cake u made for me and also the small little gift... =) Woke up at around 11plus and proceed back to my house so I could changed to a new set of clothes.. Debated with bebe over where to go b4 we decided to go over to Bishan J8.. Been ages since I set my foot there... =)

Went for lunch cum dinner over at Pasta Mania before spending rest of the time walking around... =) Went over COTTON ON and bought a berm and one short for bebe.. Been sometime since I last brought stuff for myself in SINGAPORE lol.. haha... We also catch a movie - GHOST OF GF's PAST @9.30pm. It was a superd movie.. I love the story plot - A bachelor cum playboy is haunted by the ghosts of his past girlfriends at his younger brother's wedding. The ghosts bring Connor (Matthew McConaughey) back to his past, present and lonely future to discover the point in which he became a total womanizing jerk! How nice to have so many woman in your life hor? I kinda jealous.. hahaa... Left J8 around 11plus pm after the show and went back home.. Quite a tiring day lol.. haha.. Anyway thanks bebe for the presents and stuffs tat ya done for me... hugs! =)

Last weekend*

Here I am bloggin again while waiting for my dinner and bathroom for my shower! =) I been quite "lagging" in my blog le lol.. unlike last time when I use to blog everyday then every two days then every 3 or 4days.. Now it is every week lol =( How am I going to improve my ENGLISH if I never blog everyday right? hahaha.... Last week activities as follow:

11/06/09 (THURS)
Soccer in camp after work with my camp mates and warehouse personnel... Managed to have around 4 teams playin soccer lol.. It was exciting playing with some of my colleagues whom had just returned from detachment.. I almost sprained my leg lol.. Luckily just a muscle pull and not twisted! PHEW... Midnight MJ over at xin yong's house from 11plus pm to next day 6am lol =) His house layout and furniture dam modern lifestyle lol... Mark, Gary n me were very impressed with his house which cost a wobbly 500k!!!! His house and my house quite similar - Both also 5ROOM EXECUTIVE but YET cost DOUBLE mine lol.. *_*''''''' Nevertheless, won around 2obucks which was just enough to cover my MAC's breakfast and Petrol =) Home around 7am..

12/06/09 (FRIDAY)
MJ again in the morning! Slept for few hours before going down east side again! Met up with tine tine at 11plus before picking PJ up.. Suppose to start playin at 1pm but due to tine taking long time to make up, our timing schedule delay lol... =( Went over to wei min house to play cos tat GG knocked out liao lol.. Super lousy la! Play one overnight MJ then cant wake up liao... BTH.. Lose around 30 bucks lol.. Never wear my red underwear and red shirt then lose jia lat jia lat!!! THe night before wear liao lol.. I not being superstitious but it is A FACT! I suppose RED BRING ME LUCK.. =) Haa.. PJ & TINE dun cos ya all won a little of my money then ya all avoid me! haha.. MEt up and play AGAIN again AGAIN!!!!!

13/06/09 (SATURDAY)
I sat out the parade as I injured my leg lol.. However, I still had to go for Parade Training to look after the other's belongings lol.. =( Hiaz.. Suprisingly, training end early @ 5pm and we were able to dismiss early.. Next week training may stretch to as late as 8plus or 9 plus cos we will be going over to MARINA BAY PLATFORM le lol.. >_< Met bebe and her mum after my training at TM before going back to my house.. Suppose to play MJ with gary and his gf but were cancelled last min thus bebe and I stayed at my place to watch DVDs lol =) MEt up with rx around 1am at ECP after sending bebe back home.. Been sometime since I last saw rx! =) Do alot of catchin up and we slack till 4plus before I home sweet home! Dun worry rx! IN THE END, everything will fall into place nicely for you.. SEE ya for our movie session and tok cock session soon..

14/06/09 (SUNDAY)
MJ again over at roger's place with wei min and GG making the trip up to west side.. Dam wei min play one till "west" then rushed off cos he got wedding dinner to attend! Nevertheless, we guys (roger drove and GG n me sat his car) went over to TIONG BAHRU hawker center there for our dinner with Ken foo joining us also... 4 person dinner and we had 28 chui kueh, one plate of chee cheong fun, two bowl of prawn noodles, one plate of oyster, one grill and cheese chicken cutlet and 4 cup of soya bean!! ATE TILL DAM DAM DAM FULL... On the way back to roger's place to play MJ, I feel like vomitting in his car lol.. *_*'''' GG's gf and bebe join us over at roger's place too... Play MJ till 1plus and I lose around 15bucks.. No good No good.. =( Stayed over bebe's house after our supper at the PRATA SHOP at west cost there... Some one again dun know wat time sleep lol.. BTH.. >_<

Malaysia TRIP on SUN!

Went to Taman Perling yesterday with my family and my aunt's family lol.. Been quite sometime since I last went malaysia! =) Set off around 11plus and we reached at around 12plus.. First time set my foot in Taman Perling and Bukit Indah.. The whole area is undergoing upgrading and my uncle told me tat this whole area is classify under new area development lol.. There going to be more shopping centers!

Went to eat bak ku tei for lunch and it was mouthwatering and scrumptious! No wonder alot of ppl say malaysia is well-known for it delicious foods lol... I totally agree NOW! =) Went over to Bukit Indah Shopping center where there were shops like JUSCO, F.O.S, Branded Outlet Store, Padini etc etc... Brought quite alot of clothes (one berm and 4 shirts). Luckily I came along if not my mum never buy those clothes for me le lol.. hahaa... =) My mum still love me so much afterall! x.o x.o MUM! >_<''''

One incident caught my attention when I was in the fitting room trying out some shirts.. A mum ask one of the sale girl for her number on behalf of her's son lol!! Wat suprise me the most was tat her's son was just beside her lol... WTH!! Nowadays mummy also can help son to ask for number from gals? Wat an erratic society! I dun think my mum will ever help me get number from some one else lol.. hahaa... Went for dinner over at Queenway Park and there were a whole street of foods stalls lol!!! Really enjoy the Nasi Lemak which I brought.. Chicken wing was dam superd! yummmy yummy.. Home sweet home after tat.. I cant wait to go there again lol..

GG pls make arrangement to go there together after ya exam k? This time drive ya car! =)

Went out to pick bebe after her company's dinner at geylang even though I quite tired already.. See! Dun keep sayin I dun care or neglect you lol bebe! =) Went over to her place and stay over for the night lol. Super tired and was alseep less then an hour upon reachin her house while she could still use the computer and blog and chat online lol ( dun know till wat time ). Went back to my place around 1plus just now..

Now, she sleepin soundly on my bed while I here bloggin!

Sleep also must use soft toy to cover her face? BTH lol.. >_<

So fast SUNDAY!*

Been quite a random week for me... Same old thing of workin on tue to fri and parade training on sat lol! =( Anyway soccer with mark, darrel and wei min over at simei on MONDAY's evening and dinner with bebe n rayna over at JURONG after my soccer session...

Met up with gary over at geylang for supper with bebe and rayna on WEDNESDAY. Rayna kept following us le lol.. hahaaa. Where wo go, we sure bring him go one lei.. I beta then his real brother lol! Really tc of him lei... =) Soccer with Camp mates and ST people at SSC after work on THURSDAY.. First time play with them and I kinda impressed with them lol... Their skills not bad for their age le lol.. BUT i think they more impress with me lo.. hahaa.. =)

MJ with wei min, GG n darrel over at wei min's place after my cascade briefin on FRIDAY's morning.. Met bebe first before going down to wei min's place.. When i reached, the rest haven even come lol... BTH!!! =( Went back to west side for dinner with GG before proceeding home to rest for parade the next day.. HIAZ... a bit no life! Nevertheless, yesterday is ONE OF THE HOTTEST DAY EVER during my parade training! F**K lol.. standing under the sorching sun with a rifle!!!! One more week of training and we off to marina platfrom! I suppose there is even hotter with such a big surface area... siao liao lol.. Pls call me DARKY DAVE next time.. =(

BEBE: Sorry tat i didnt have much time for u cos I just simply love to sleep and sleep! hahaa.. Hugs.
PJ & QE & HOON: pls dun 4get our MJ session hor!!! & I never take u all as spare tyres lol.. =)
RX: I know ya kinda busy recently but meet up soon k? see ya
GG: Good luck for ya exam dude.. work hard n faster earn big money! Then u can buy ya TOYOTA cefiro with ya gf!!! I wont 4get ya BIG DAY in JANUARY though! haa
PEARLY: Be strong in Aussie k? I know ya can and I cant wait to see u again! TC n miss ya!

OFF to malaysia later with my family and relatives! =)

Updating of blog*

I been upgrading my blog and FINALLY, I added my mini IPOD into my blog! NICE RIGHT? =) I will upload more of my FAV songs into the playlist and everyone can listen lol..

Another boring MODAY for me! Nevertheless, I just finished watchin MONSTER vs ALIENS online. Quite a nice and funny show! I like the character BOB - The blue little sticky, elastic, jelly-like monster! The cast include a 49 feet tall SUSAN, Dr. Cockroach PHD, the half-ape half-fish MISSING LINK and BOB. Story bout how 5 monsters fight off the aliens from invading planet Earth!

Till now, I still haven finish watchin drama like Gossip Girls season 2, Harper Island, 老婆大人2, movies like terminator 2, night in the musem 2! Gota finished them soon....

Back to watchin show again! ciao!

POKER FACESS on SAT*

Finally going to meet up with KEN LOKE after he MIA for one month plus from our group lol.. =) Happi BELATED BIRTHDAY DUDE! HAPPY 22TH.. WELCOME TO THE 22YR OLD FAMILY! =) NDP training in the afternoon as usual and training ended around 7pm.. Quite early compared to the other few training tat we had lol..

Supposed to send my friends back home to the west but rx needed a lift from me. As her BFF, I went down to her place to fetch her and send her to Tam before proceeding back to the west to send the rest of the guys back home.. Rx, I know sat is the day ya been waiting for some time, but also dun need to put such a strong perfume ma! Ya perfume made me and my guys friends all giddy lol! hahaa.. Send two of my friends to teck whye before picking bebe up at limbang, where she met shirely for dinner.. Poor samuel had to follow me from tam to teck whye to cck before he could go back home! haha.. =) In the end, i could not meet gary and the rest for dinner.. SOrry guys, But i still met ya all after tat right? =) Instead of meetin them at 7.30pm, I could only met them at 10pm at Gu You's place... >_<>

Poker all the way till 2.30 am before leaving Gu You's place.. Won 20 bucks.. Hmmm not bad considering tat I am not tat good with Poker lol.. Still prefer MJ then poker though.. =) Thanks bebe for accompanying me lol.. I knew ya kinda tired but ya still made effort to spend time with me.. But I not tat bad either right? Spend time with ya after POKER session lol.. =) hehe..

Some of the pics tat we taken:

DREAMLAND at around 5plus again! =)

FriDAY MJ session*

Arranged MJ session with rx and eunice and the other kaki suppose to be xin yong but he was unable to make it at the last min and thus came my spare tyre, ROGER ANG! hahaaa... Thanks for being availabe at the right time, right day =)

Before meetin up with them, went down to school with bro to collect his result slip.. OMG, Pass only one subject.. How the hell he did tat, i really dun know lol.. His Co - form teacher asked me did I supervise him and I told her tat in our family, each one of us is on our own! hahaa... Model ANSWER lol.. =) Anyway he big enough to think for himself already thus, I not going to interfere in his school life.. He still kinda scary for me though.. >_<

Went down to Orchard to meet rx and eunice before our MJ session.. Miss eunice dun think ya meet me one day for MJ then ya can MIA again hor! It ya holidays now! Friends are equally important right? haa.. Proceed to my place after sending rx's sis back. Waited for BIG HEAD to come before commencing lol.. It the first time i played with eunice lol... She quite a 'nice' player as she kept feedin me with tiles, especially 'ka long' tiles.. haaa.. THANKS alot.. Managed to win around 45 bucks.. =) Can cover the payment of my SUMMON lol.. swee! thank BIG HEAD for contributing much of his money to me.. =)

Send rx and eunice back after MJ in my dad's vios.. Who will be so stupid to drive his own car when going on a long journey lei? Haha.. SMART me! After sending them to their respective locations, procced to circular road to pick bebe up after her heart-to-heart talk with shirely lol.. Reached home around 5am and I still had parade the following day! I DISLIKE marchin under the HOT SUN!!!! HELP me =(

HERE COME MY Night-life stlye again!

MARKY's Chalet*

It been some time since i blog again.. Guess been MIA for too long ah? =) Here I am again bloggin on my MODAY OFF DAY! Last week had been a hetic week for me.. Busy clearing my DAY off and busy gambling at MaRk 's ORD chalet.. =)

24/5 - 25/5
Went over to MARK's chalet on sunday with the rest of the dudes at Pasir Ris Downtown. Been quite a while since we last had a chalet together.. Hmmm the last time was during my belated Birthday celebration in FEB ba! BBQ and playin MJ all the way lol.. I stayed over with roger, rayna, ken foo on sunday.. Went over to visit gary on monday morning after his operation at changi Hospital while roger went for his MA too... Finally GG, no more op for you ah? I know ya been through alot but dun let this setback make u withdraw from playin soccer again! Shall see ya running up n down in hmmm maybe OCT? ya comeback DAY! =) Lastly no more VOMMITTING ah? =) Ken bring his WII to the chalet too! I suck at tennis lol... sian 1/2

26/5
Went back home on tue morning to rest while roger, mark and his gf went fishing.. Dam shag out cos had not been sleepin well at the chalet lol.. Went back to mark chalet again since they wanta play MJ.. Before going to the chalet, I picked min min up as she comin with me too.. =) Been so long since we met right? Seriously how we end up back together was amazing up? hahaa.. =) Since we back together, I guess everything will be sorted out by itself ba! haa.. Went over to my granny's place to pass her some dumplings tat my mum and aunt made.. Supposed to be a short visit, turned to a very long visit and I was late to meet the rest as I need to send my granny down to visit her cousin's son whom is in Singapore to study... Down to chalet after tat for dinner.. Guess the rest of them was shocked to see min min with me though! haaa.. The rest of the event not going to elaborate lol.. Definitely enjoy myself at the chalet.. Lose around 50 bucks in MJ... =( Plus another SUMMON! lose 100 bucks at chalet.. F**K Roger dun know worship wat god.. Win so much money!