Feelings*

After our breakup again, I heard alot of different opinions and comments by ppl all around me.. I really must not ever repeat my mistake again. Read through ellen's blog in which she commented "this gf of his is so in love with him yet.. he is playing a fool.. keep breaking up and patching back with her" I just wanta say tat I am not playin a fool or taking ppl for granted or simply just be with someone cos I am desperate etc... I guess some of my closer friends around me knew wat type of person I am.. Maybe I kinda touched easily by someone? Maybe I one tat dun know how to reject a person? Maybe I one tat fuck-up? I must really reflect myself again in the mirror... There no room for mistakes again.. DEFINITELY NO!

When I think back about it, maybe wat rx and the others say is true after all.. When things really happen between both party, it is not easy to be back together again.. Rx asked me if I really did like min min when we were back together the second time and I told her yes, definitely had some feelings for her.. But these few days make me realise that I not into this r/s as what I expected.. Not the type of r/s feelings that normal couple is talkin about. I just know that I hurted her yet again.. I REALLY SORRY.

Maybe up till now, I still have not get over her, 050605? Memories still embedded in my heart... But I know she had another person in her life already..

Why must we always lose something in our life, then we will know how important they matter to us?