如果你也听说*

Been listening to 如果你也听说 for the past half an hour. Really nice song which I totally love. If you are wondering who is the singer, she is none other then 张惠妹! =) Sometime I just cant help thinkin bout the past when I listen to emo songs.. I am human after all so I guess that how life is. Thinking and thinking. wondering and wondering... If I can just erase my memory and move on in a new fresh 'mode', how good can it be right? =) let everyone's life start anew!

如果你也听说

有没有想过我

想普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落

要怎么附和

舍不得 又无可奈何

Anyway today is the end of exercise and up next will be singapore airshow. Latest news is that I will not be going over for the airshow as only one material spec will be going over. I will station in my base to offer any support that may arise lol.. =) Been 2 week since I went back my unit.. It time to make-a-come back hor? hahaa.. Heard that we may require one more material spec to go oversea during March to support oversea detachment. If I am choosen to go, there are pros and cons lol.. Going for oversea mean increase in salary lol.. but tat also mean I will miss some of my school lesson >_<''' Watever it is, shall wait and see how everything goes.. =) Sun is my birthday and till now I have not make any plans yet.. With so much work stuff to handle, is there still time to input 'celebration' into my schedule? Time to sleep now..

如果你想起我 你会想到什么?

First day of exercise*

Went to work at 5pm and I back home by 10pm lol.. Sweet little working hours just now.. Just wat I love most! Anyway nothin much happen today except helpin the guys to retrieve those spares items that they need.. =)

Heard that there onli be one material spec going over to Airshow next week.. Maybe I going? Maybe not? Watever it is, I have to help to pack n stuff those items into the containers by monday lol.. OT week looming ahead tis week!

And tis sun is my birthday lol.. =) No major celebration this yr though.. Used to book chalet for my birthdays but this yr shall just be a quiet day for me ba... simplicity is the best! =) Will be having sch on weekend and there still some work stuff to be complete lol.. =( I shall not grumble n grumble today =)

SUPRISINGLY NO MONDAY BLUEs FOR ME TODAY! =) Hopefully I can have a wonderful week ahead... =) off to play my PS3 now.. =O

ELVA - 两个人的寂寞

你给过的好我会一直记得

笑过哭过我都曾经很快乐

你走后孤单不算什么

两个人我们曾更寂寞

爱情在时间里遗失了

我不想再僵持着

告别两个人的寂寞

Came across this song by Elva. Wonderful song with splendid lyrics.. Somehow it make me ponder about the past again lol.. =( Diao! Dave going emo again ah? haha.. Dun worry everyone.. I have already let everything go and left it behind me now.. To love or to be love? which one is beta? I really wanta know lol.. =) I trying hard to ask myself diffcult question so that I can spend the rest of the night answering them lol..haha.. IF I fall asleep now, I goign wake up early tmr and I sure going be very tired when I go to work at 5pm! Ok.. maybe I just finding execuses lol.. >_<''' Time to go listen to more music! I in love with elva other song too - 闪闪惹人爱!!! SUPER SONG! =)

BUsY jan! & MayBE till FEB? *

Start of tmr is Hot-Shot exercise and I be involved in distributing those components and spares parts lol.. I can sense a long and heavy week ahead for me.. Needless to say, I have spent quite some time in stuffing and packing those items into the containers... Logsitic support is never an easy task... There so mani things to oversee and take charge of... =(

Come tmr, I be workin night shift starting from 5pm to dun know wat time while my other counterpart will be workin in the day shift.. After this exercsie, we will be going over for Singapore Airshow too.. Logisitic support again! load n load of work to be carry out.. Judging at my work schedule, I be busy from jan to feb lol.. >_<'' and it only the start of the work year lei...

Watever it is, it my job and I have to do it well then.. There still so mani things for me to learn.. and if I am to be deploy oversea for detachments, all those stuff I learn will definitely come in handy.. =) Workacholic dave teo lol.. Maybe without so much work, I may tend to be emo again lol.. haha.. But I definitely dun wanta work till wee hours everyday! I still remember working from 9am to 2am on wed lol.. completely shag out and I go back camp next day at 8 plus am again.. >_<"

Anyway enough of tokin bout work lol.. Jan is alway the month tat I be looking forward to cos of my birthday lol.. But this year, I not tat eager or excited to celebrate my birthday anymore.. Maybe wat my mum say is true? As long as one have alot alot alot of money in his/her pocket and is leading a happy lifestyle, then everyday is his/her birthday lol.. Agree? hahahaa.. =)

Btw have to apologise to quite alot of ppls like rx, sis trace, ellen, wm etc etc for failing to meet up and turn up for either our gathering or their birthday celebration lol.. Hope u all dun blame me though.. Really held up with work and sch committments.. =( Nevertheless, hope everyone is really doing well n fine now... =) 11 more months to go ppl! 2011.. =)

2010*

well 2009 has passed and it the first day of 2010 today! No big celebration or any count-down party involved for me though. Went over to Big Head's crib and have a small gathering cum mj session lol.. Everyone been very positive about welcoming the new yr into their life so I am going to be very very very positivie too... =)

Lookin back in 2009, I guess there more misery and saddness for me rather then happiness lol.. But everything happened for a reason and I believed that I have learnt from my mistakes. I shall not repeat those mistakes again! Even though my love rs failed, I have gained new love! After what has happened, I learnt that my mum still care and love me so much. used to quarrel so much with her and used to dislike her, but the days spent at home communicating and tokin more to her make me realised that she dote and love me so much. She helped me preare foods for my birthday dinner at home and birthday chalet, help me pay for my old car's repair and also helped me settle the outstanding loan balance when I sold my car and most importantly helped my pay for my school fees in advance lol.. Wat a good mum right? Thus, I shall never tok bout disliking or hating her anymore. I must be mad if I do tat lol!

Nevertheless, the break-up of my and COJW make me realised how bad I failed as a BF. When problems arise and we failed to resolve it asap, it going to be hard for us to resolved in the later stage as we tend not to believe to what the other party say... TRUST is the ultimum core values in a RS and that is what is missing in our rs. I cry over spill milk for a period of time and keep pondering why it has to happen to us.. BUT ultimately I know the main reason is that I failed my duty as a BF. If I cant keep her happy, there is no reason for me to stop her from finding her own happiness. I really learnt alot from this rs and I am not going to be emo in 2010 over this rs anymore. Everything is over and maybe I can welcome the new yr with a new RS? haa.. =)

Needless to say, I owe a big apology to shu min for hurting her.. what has happend happen already and I cant say anything much except for apologising. There is no turning back for us and I really hope you can look forward in your life. I am not worth your waiting and there definitely much beta guys out there for you! Sorry for what has happened.... All the best in yr 2010 for you... Even though I experiences failure in RS, I have learnt one important theory:

Treasure each other instead of complaining what the other party failed to have cos starting a RS is not easy but ending the rs onli take a few words to end it...

All the best to loving couples especially my GG! Cant wait to see ya get marry dude.. been talking bout this issue for some time already lei.. Just farking get over it and done with can? =)

Some other agonies that happened including the need for me to sell my car, the need for me to study for my part-time degree etc lol.. From driving become have to take public transport is alway not an ideal position to be in lol.. No choice la.. incurr so much repair costs and with the insurance capped at 3k plus, I must be mad if I am still going to drive the little aveo lol.. Likewise going back to study is not a good thing to look forward right? But getting a degree is the criteria for survival in this intense and fast-moving society. Since I still in regular service, beta make use of the time that I have lol.. THus I head back to sch in Sept lol.. =( And come 2010, I am going to take those core subjects and I guess I am going to be much busier lol.. Busy busy davie boy..

Hiaz, Guess I shall not tok so much bout my agonies or miseries right? Kinda sad to welcome the new yr lol.. haha.. But it goes to show how much things have happened in my life lol.. Whatever it is, Just wanta welcome the new yr with a new lease of life! Hopefully I have more luck especially 'wealth' for me in the new yr ahead! With money, everthing is possible! =) Maybe I should wish for fitness too... I am growing kinda fat already.. More exercises in 2010? Shall plan out a list of activities in 2010 soon... Maybe by planning ahead, I can keep my life more organised? Pls advise if I am wrong lol.. =)

Once again, Happi 2010 everyone! All the best to all of us in yr 2010.. Cant wait for World Cup to kick off! =)