Lookin back in 2009, I guess there more misery and saddness for me rather then happiness lol.. But everything happened for a reason and I believed that I have learnt from my mistakes. I shall not repeat those mistakes again! Even though my love rs failed, I have gained new love! After what has happened, I learnt that my mum still care and love me so much. used to quarrel so much with her and used to dislike her, but the days spent at home communicating and tokin more to her make me realised that she dote and love me so much. She helped me preare foods for my birthday dinner at home and birthday chalet, help me pay for my old car's repair and also helped me settle the outstanding loan balance when I sold my car and most importantly helped my pay for my school fees in advance lol.. Wat a good mum right? Thus, I shall never tok bout disliking or hating her anymore. I must be mad if I do tat lol!
Nevertheless, the break-up of my and COJW make me realised how bad I failed as a BF. When problems arise and we failed to resolve it asap, it going to be hard for us to resolved in the later stage as we tend not to believe to what the other party say... TRUST is the ultimum core values in a RS and that is what is missing in our rs. I cry over spill milk for a period of time and keep pondering why it has to happen to us.. BUT ultimately I know the main reason is that I failed my duty as a BF. If I cant keep her happy, there is no reason for me to stop her from finding her own happiness. I really learnt alot from this rs and I am not going to be emo in 2010 over this rs anymore. Everything is over and maybe I can welcome the new yr with a new RS? haa.. =)
Needless to say, I owe a big apology to shu min for hurting her.. what has happend happen already and I cant say anything much except for apologising. There is no turning back for us and I really hope you can look forward in your life. I am not worth your waiting and there definitely much beta guys out there for you! Sorry for what has happened.... All the best in yr 2010 for you... Even though I experiences failure in RS, I have learnt one important theory:
Treasure each other instead of complaining what the other party failed to have cos starting a RS is not easy but ending the rs onli take a few words to end it...
Some other agonies that happened including the need for me to sell my car, the need for me to study for my part-time degree etc lol.. From driving become have to take public transport is alway not an ideal position to be in lol.. No choice la.. incurr so much repair costs and with the insurance capped at 3k plus, I must be mad if I am still going to drive the little aveo lol.. Likewise going back to study is not a good thing to look forward right? But getting a degree is the criteria for survival in this intense and fast-moving society. Since I still in regular service, beta make use of the time that I have lol.. THus I head back to sch in Sept lol.. =( And come 2010, I am going to take those core subjects and I guess I am going to be much busier lol.. Busy busy davie boy..
Hiaz, Guess I shall not tok so much bout my agonies or miseries right? Kinda sad to welcome the new yr lol.. haha.. But it goes to show how much things have happened in my life lol.. Whatever it is, Just wanta welcome the new yr with a new lease of life! Hopefully I have more luck especially 'wealth' for me in the new yr ahead! With money, everthing is possible! =) Maybe I should wish for fitness too... I am growing kinda fat already.. More exercises in 2010? Shall plan out a list of activities in 2010 soon... Maybe by planning ahead, I can keep my life more organised? Pls advise if I am wrong lol.. =)
Once again, Happi 2010 everyone! All the best to all of us in yr 2010.. Cant wait for World Cup to kick off! =)
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