-special one-

I am back home and had a sudden urge to blog bout how i feel today. =( Ppl that dun know me well will be saying how happy i should be right? When i managed to get promoted and also pass my IPPT in my first attempt. But is tat how i am really feeling? Am i really happy? Am i really excited? I DOUBT SO.. I not feeling at all happy today..

When i heard the news of my promotion, of course i was smiling 'inside' my heart. But came to think of it.. It was just a promotion. I used to make a fuss out of a promotion cause those were the days that i am still attached with her. A promotion meant an increase in pay and that would mean a celebration and big feast out with her. JUST THE TWO OF US. NOBODY ELSE. Wat bout now? I have two good news and i should be celebrating happily and crazily right? BUY WITH WHO? WHO THE SPECIAL ONE ? NOPE. NOBODY this time round. I AM ON MY OWN. I accepted the fact already. BUT I JUST CANT HELP FEELING like this the whole day.
Happy yesterday, EMO today? How short-lived.... =( All the memories came pouring back again.. I HATE IT.. I HATE BEING EMO.. I HATE BEING SAD. I HATE BEING REMORSEFUL. But do i have a choice to choose my mood and feelings everyday? I cant right!

In the past, i would be dam dam happy and ecstatic now. Smiling radiantly 'inside' and 'outside'. As happy as a swan. Celebrating with my 'special' one. Enjoying ourselves outside.......

WAKE UP ZM! it aint/wont/not going to happen!

PROMOTION cum IPPT

Attended the promotion ceremony in the morning after my IPPT. It was great to see some of my colleagues getting promoted together with me. Some from 3SG to 2SG and some from 2SG to 1SG. Receive the promotion letter and rank from my Base Commander. Beside getting promoted, I also cleared my IPPT in my 1st attempt! Not bad for me le lol.. Considering that i eat more then i exercise! =)

My IPPT result as follow:

CHIN UP: 8 --------------------3POINT

SIT UP: 41 --------------------5 POINT

SBJ: 230cm ---------------------3POINT

SHUTTLE RUN: 10.4sec --------3POINT

2.4KM RUN: 11.02min ----------3POINT

TOTAL 17POINT

To get a silver in IPPT for service side in SAF, all grade must be a minimum of C and total points of 15 and above. Guess wat? I GET A SILVER lol.. Indeed it double blessing and celebration for me today! I couldnt have ask for more lol.. Mean i can eat whatever food I want and not worry bout being fat till cant run lol.. Hmmm but if i not wrong, i mentioned tat i wanta slim down yesterday lol !!! =(

MY PROMOTION LETTER =)

SaD & HaPpY nEwS

Tmr will be takin my IPPT and i not very confident lol.. Been eating, playin and slacking too much.. Hiaz dun even know got stamina to run under the timing of 11min and 45 sec not.. Got to slim down! slim down! SLIM DOWN! 2009 resolution! Not too late right? =(

Anyway it been decided and confirmed with my parents tat my car will be selling away in August. Most probably after NDP... This car has been giving me quite alot of problems lately and selling it away will solve all problems though. If my dad is going to buy a new car, at least i can take over his vios since he going to finish paying his installments.. But with his recent pay cut, i doubt we are going to buy a new car.. Look like i am going to save enough money before buying another car then.. =( Pray hard that there is a sudden twist of luck lol... Hmmm striking lottery should solve all problems ba! haha

After going through so much misery recently due to my r/s problem, the news tat i will be promoted to 2SG wef of 1st May 09 at least did bring out a smile on my face.. I suppose that is a piece of good news for me =)

If i can pass my IPPT tmr, this week will have double good news for me lol =)

*sUn

Was sleepin soundly when me and xin yong were waken up by the noisy sound of my bro vaccuming the floor! Managed to sleep for only 3 hours plus only to be disturbed by someone.. BTH.. Went out for early lunch with xin yong before driving my dad's car to send him back home.. Went back home immediately to catch my beauty sleep after tat.. Dam Shag out..

Met up with rx in the night to catch a movie ( 17 AGAIN ) and for her to return me back my car. She also quite 'lucky' as she encountered a puncture tyre while she was driving my car to pick me up.. Still thought she was joking when she told me about it, but on second thought, she sounded very serious and there no point for her to bluff me ma.. haha.. Luckily her friend and frien's dad managed to travel down to help change a new tyre. Thanks! I was already driving my dad's car down to meet her when she told me the tyre has been changed. In the END, we drove TWO CARS to cine to catch a movie!! Steady ah, two person watch one movie drove two car.. haha.

Anyway the show was pretty good. 17 Again is a comedy show starring Zac Efron and Matthew Perry in which a 30 plus guy have a second shot at life... With tat chance of being transformed into 17 again, mike (Matthew Perry) took this chance to lead the life that he always wanted.. Watch the show to find out more!! =)

I began to think if i could turn back 17 again, i will never make the mistakes tat i have make.. Fail r/s, strained r/s with my mum and mine gambling debts will never ever ever ever be part of my life again! Hiaz.. no point lookin back now as we should keep looking forward in out life right? There is a sayin tat goes: There 2 things to aim in life - First is to get wat you want and the second, is to enjoy it. =) I already make a mistake once, i am not going to repeat it again.. I had waken up le lol.. Anyway there more nice and blockbuster movies releasing soon! Going to watch most of it if i can.. =) time to sleep soon..

SaT *

NDP parade training as usual on sat and we were told to march 1km around the parade square this time. The distance will increase and increase till we were able to march 2.8km as the actual NDP will involve a city march of 2.8km! =( Training ended at around 5pm and by the time we returned rifle back at PLAB, the time was already 7pm le... One good thing to note was tat my parade trainin will stop for 2 weeks before commencing on 16 may again due to the public holidays.. SWEE man!

She called me in the morning to tell me that her grandpa had pass away in the hospital and i send my deepest condolences to her and her family. After wat we had gone through, the least i could do for her was to attend her grandpa wake. I was deeply sadden to hear the news and my heart go out to you in your time of sorrow. Hope ya will be strong to accept it. TC..

Meet up with rx and lina over for dinner (popeye) at Changi airport. Some one first time eating lol! I shall not mentioned name here.. haha.. After dinner, we went over to pasir ris downtown east to pick yong xin aka xin yong before proceeding to my house for majong. First time play with xin yong and he really show me wat a good player he was. He play DEFENSIVE ALL THE WAY lo... Say wat need to guard against lina and rx...*_*""" Nevertheless, we have alot of jokes and laughter together.. In the end, xin yong suffer a heavy defeat lol.. We play 2 rounds and I managed to win 80bucks.. Recently my MJ's luck quite good and i start to wonder is it cause i been wearing red inside and outside? Hohoho..

By the time we end our second round, it was around 5am and we went out for our 'early' breakfast (PRATA) at Jurong kechill. I physically quite drained out le so i let rx drive my car back. With all the 'training' that she had gone through, i felt safe to let her drive back alone. She send me and xin yong back to my house before sending lina back. By the time i reached home, i was knocked out within 15minutes.. In my dreamland with xin yong after tat.. lalalala =)

FIRST EVER PIC TAKEN WITH ME WEARING MY UNIFORM. =)

*FLyInG pILlOw*

My pillow fell all the way down from 17th storey just now! thanks to my mum 'brillant' idea of puttin my pillow at the window for it to expose to sunlight and wind. I dun know why she must put it ouside of the window but i just glad that my pillow never hit anyone on their head lol.. A case of a pillow tryin to fly!

Anyway i was very suprised to see min min left a bottle of foot spray outside my house yesterday night. My bro opened the door in the morning and wake me up to tell me lol.. Min min i appreciate ya kind-hearted nature and concern for buying the spray for me to use after my parade. However, wat ya do is worth it anot? I really know it is imposssible for us to work out already. I hope u can just give up on me and move on.. Trust me, someone out there will definitely love you and appreciate you. I am sorry tat things turn out like this. I am really not worth you waiting for me. Move on and look forward k? One day, a guy will fully appreciate it when you buy de bottle of foot spray for him. Ya deserve someone tat is good to you.... But tat person is not me......

Until you are happy with who you are, if not you will never be happy with what you have.

RaNdOm LiFeStYlE?

Today woke up feelin abit tired and sian of going to work. I still have many years to go in RSAF lol.. So how cant i feel like this? I believe nobody will work without complaining bout their work, their pay, their boss etc etc.. List goes on and on and on.. Neverthe less i force myself to go to work today =)

Saw wat rx post in her blog and it make me think alot - "Everything's been very stagnant, very routine, very quiet." Hmmm is my life like this now? Am i feelin the same way too? I suppose this is part and parcel of life though. When we grow older and have our own family, wat happen? Everday go to work, after work go home be a loving husband and doting father to the family. This will go from monday to friday. Sat and sun will be spending time with families again. By then, my life will really be very very very very routine! I lost the one that i love and now i dun wanta have any more regrets in life... So now, I DEFINITELY wanta spend my time and life to the fullest. FULLEST!

Lead a lifestyle tat i will never regret when i look back in years to come!

+MoNdAy NiGhT+

Met up with hoon hoon, pj and gary on monday night. Been ages since i last saw the two 'laugh non stop' gals lol.. Pick them up at SIM before driving down to Kallang lesiure Park for dinner. Tat GG call us go down there to meet up yet he ate at home before comin out to meet us! As usual tat GG was always late.. And we go all de way down to kallang lesiure park to eat KFC! There the KFC nicer ma? o_o ""

Do alot of catchin up and told them about wat happened recently to me and her and min min. Kinda bring back the memories of me and her. Things like when we started out together and when we start to hold hands and kiss all came flowing back to me.. Nevertheless, all these were part of my memories already..

Whenever hang out with them, sure alot of stories and nonsense and laughters de lol.. =) I felt so honour to know that hoon and pj are my blog's loyal supporters lol.. I hope they do not have the intention do 'stalk' me up lol.. HAHA.. Maybe what they say is true also, i should start thinking about publishin a book about me once my blog become a hit. Hmmm put it this way.. ONCE i brush up my english and obtain a DEGREE in life philosophy, i can start thinkin about being an author ah? =) PJ remind me to upload her photo in my blog and i shall do it when i free.. For wat reason? I dun know lol.. hahaha

As usual, GG leave early to go fetch and meet his gf. Look like i not part of his life anymore lol.. haha.. But i believe tat even if one day he and me both have our own families, we will still be as close as now. 真正好朋友不是在一起就有聊不完的话题，而是在一起就算不说话, 你看我而我看你, 也不会感到尴尬。Make sense right? Another philosophy quote by Dave Teo.. =)

=Movies=

Watch KNOWING and 神枪手 just now. Both are really nice show... I remember both of us agree to watch 神枪手 together. But things turn out like 'this' and i have to revoke my promise.

Have been in and out of toilet 4 times already. Dun know what i ate yesterday lol.. Now i am feeling like a jelly, so so so wobbly... =( Lucky today off, if not need to report sick again..

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/NS0-MiBF-8k/

爱你在伤口 BY 任贤齐

一个伤口

复原要多久

一道疤痕会留多久

我不是害怕痛只怕永久

忘记需要多少次泪流

拒绝不停提醒我

我越想放开却越紧握

你早已烙印在我胸

那些曾甜蜜的拥有

已经分不清是爱是伤口

伤 像是一个合不拢的口

不管我用多少的温柔

也是换不回你的昨日我的感动

爱 爱得越深就越不敢吼

你已深深地刺穿我内心深处最深的角落

我痛 不是因为你伤了我

而是你让我真正明白

爱你在伤口

没有你的日子像一个没有子弹的神枪手

他该靠什么继续生活

如果命运总是捉弄

付出的一定有结果

至少我还有你在我心中

This is a dam dam meaningful song by 任贤齐 from his latest show 神枪手. Nice show with nice song. Go and download and listen.. It really a good song.. =)

Weekend

Hmmm... no much plans for weekend as my sat is again involve in NDP parade training.. Nevertheless, rx, adeline and her bf drop by my house at night for mj after my training. The stakes we play is 3 6. 5tai = 20 bucks =) Even though training were tough and tired, the mention of MJ sure will kept me awake =) The other thing is FOOTBALL lol... Cant remember wat time we started playin but we end around 4am after playin 2 rounds. Managed to win 60bucks =) However i not the overall winner, rx win around 80 bucks if i not wrong. Recently dun know what she ate or do, kept winning money since she back from her killing spree from genting.. U should look at her tiles ma. dam scary.. =(

Feel abit pai say cos adeline and her bf lose again.. But i was losing close to 50 bucks in the first round lei. Until the second round then recoup back! Look like playin in my house bring me luck! Hohoho.. Anyway thanks for makin the trip down to my house for mj =) Hate my horny dad cos he kapo my 50 dollars for his car's petrol! F**k

Wake up around 3 plus in the afternoon on sun. Stay at home and slack the whole day lol.. Dam restless also.. =( However, i never waste away my sun lol.. stay home to pack my room and watch movies online.. My room dam messy lol.. Such a small room cant even keep clean.. Next time have a house dun know how lol.. IF I HAVE LA...

Anyway i recovering well.. i guess i already managed to realise how important time matter to me now. I cant turn time back so i can onli learn and move on. I admit i was dam sad the past few days but i thanks those words of encouragements from ppl like rx, pearly, nana, hoon hoon, mirelle, gary, roger, my camp mates and whoever i miss out. Ya know who u are.. A big thank you especially to gary and rx... Ya two are always there to lend a listening ear to me.

Thanks to min min also. i saw the msg that ya send to tell me to be strong and to cheer up. I appreciate it. But pls stop waiting for me. I dun deserve tat. Trust me, there are alot of beta guys out there who will definitely be a beta bf then me. I hurt ya before and now i wanta and hope to see ya find ya own happiness again. I could onli tell you here in my blog cos i dun know how to tell it to you. sorry once again.

Time will heal everything and i gurantee ya all will see de crappy Dave Teo again.. =)

END OF COC PARADE

Finally, COC parade is over now and now i will only have to train for NDP. Parade was pretty smooth. NO mistakes or error. =) Parade end around 7plus just now lol.. Dam tired and there i have one more parade training tmr =( Life is like this for me lol.. parade, parade and more parade.. Pretty soon, everything will be over and i can get my freedom back! Freedom on a sat.. 4 more months to go!

I know tat when i woke up today, I have to learn to be strong. STRONG will be the word to use to motivate myself and to keep me in mind of what i have to do. Life is set in a way tat ppl will onli start to love after they lose something. For me, time and fate is not on my side and i have nobody to blame. Wat the point in me lookin back when she had already move onto a new rs? I have already pick myself up as of today and i know with more time, i will recover! Thanks you ppl for being there for me to encourage and lend a listening ear to me! i appreciate it..

I rather by LUTHER VANDROSS

I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you,

than good times with someone else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm,

than safe and warm by myself

I'd rather have hard times together,

than to have it easy apart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

And then I met someone

and thought she could replace you

we got a long just fine

we wasted time because she was not you

we had a lot of fun

though we knew we were faking

love was not impressed with our connection

they were all lies, all lies

so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true

that I'm nothing without you

This is indeed a very very nice song that describe my whole feelings. Rx is right bout this song! She intro to me and say i will love it and indeed i love this song cos the lyrics dam dam meaningful.. The song like relating to my story of me and her and min min. =( This song will be my blog's song as of now...

Memories

I do something for her yesterday. Something memorable i could say and also the last ever gift for her. She has chose wat she want and i been tellin myself tat everything is just a dream. I have to wake up and start my life anew. Nobody can live in their dreams right? Am i saying all these to make myself beta or am i ready to forsake everything? Time will and should be able to prove everything...

Since yesterday, i been thinking to myself. She has already accepted a new guy in her life and tat meant tat she already moved on. So all the things tat she told me made it hard for me to accept and maybe believe. Not tat i dun trust her. But within a short time of maybe one month after we broke up, she had already accepted a new rs. The things tat she mentioned of being together 4ever and me being her one and onli, suddenly meant nothing to both of us. NOTHING.. From today onwards, I no longer her ming and tat we are onli left with memories. I hope TIME will erased everything of her and maybe one day de date 050605 shall be just another normal numeric figures. Everyone hope to see me strong right? I will definitely be strong. ALL the best to you in ya new rs. WE are taking different path from today onwards. TC..

Our last ever 'HAPPY' photo taken yesterday at marina keppel

Time to sleep now. COC parade tmr. Need to report at 8am when de actual event start at 5pm! Dun know wat to say lol... BTH.. NIGHT ppl..

S.T.R.O.N.G

150409 - DAM SAD DAY

Met her yesterday. She told me that she still miss me and the past. But it too late for us. She dun wanta hurt him. And I really unds de situation that she was in. When we were eating dinner, i already realised how things have change for us. She very in love now. I dun wanta see her stuck in this situation. All the while, she had never say tat we will get back together. She only told me to move on cos i not worth her love and tat she claimed tat i might find another beta gal out. HOW am i going to accept another gal if i cant let go off her and really wanta be with her? Either she single or with him. There no ZM in her life? Onli memories.... Memories are meant to be kept onli. NOW i finally unds..

After sending her back home, i go for a spin and that when i decided to go down to west coast alone. I wanta be alone. Sitting in the car, reading her diary make me feel dam dam sad. i cry like shit. FIRST TIME I CRY till i need to breath very hatd. All the memories came flooding back. But why do i wait till now then regret? why do i change too late?

ZM, face the fact. IT JUST TOO LATE.. TOO TOO LATE. Everything is too late already. TIME and FATE are not on my side.

Gary and rx thanks for tryin to ask me out to acccompany me. But being alone yesterday make me feel beta. Yesterday suppose to be my 1st month with shu min, i still remember tat. BUT i really dun wanta hurt you anymore. I really know what i want in my life. SO i hope u can find another goal in ya life. Be happy. SORRY once again..

WAT IS LOVE? I been askin myself this qns since i woke up.

Going to go parade soon. DAM no mood. Heart and Eyes dam pain. How to do the drills in this type of condition?

DREAMING & Thinking & THINKING

After watchin the show ' FAST AND FURIOUS' last week, i have a sudden interest in subaru wrx ! It a very nice show with all those 'exotic' , 'fierce' and 'heavily' mod car. The cars in the show really capture my attention lol.. =) Below are some pics of my ideal car.. When can i have one of those? Hmmm in yrs to come ba.. or when i strike lottery!

Did you all notice one common thing in the 3 pics? =) I like cars with exterior light beneath the car! it really make a car look more like a car.. However, in singapore i think it will only attract the TP attention though.

I am 'Dreaming' bout fast cars and her now. But does she know tat? =(

To 050605:

Even though 2 days have past, i know ya still vexed bout who to choose and who to be with. I really hope my pressence again is not creating a mess of ya life. Anything just msg me and i will be there to help ya if i can.. Just follow ya heart as happiness lies in our own hands... Watever happen, I really happy tat i am still part of our memories..

To Shu Min:

I dun deserve you to wait for me. I hurt you and i hope ya really able to stand up on ya feet again. I not the ideal one for you. I know wat i want already and it her tat i really hope to be back with again. Really sorry tat i hurt you. Sorry for everything.. You will definitely find a nicer guy then me. I believe you can.. 4get bout me k? once again SORRY.. No matter how many sorry i say to you, i know it wont help and make ya feel beta. I really hope u are ok and fine... Lead ya life to the fullest k?

NOTICE of SPEEDING OFFENCE!

Receive a letter from Traffic Police just now and my first thought - KANA SPEEDING AGAIN MA? But luckily i kana a warning letter this time round. I do not have so much points to let them deduct lol.. Letter stipulated tat i was reported by patrol officer to have committed the below speeding offence:

DATE OF OFFENCE : 9 APRIL 2009, 4.20PM

PLACE OF OFFENCE: UPPER BUKIT TIMAH ROAD -> CLEMENTI ROAD

SPEED DETECTED: 84KM/H

SPEEDING OFFENCE: EXCEED SPEED LIMIT OF 70KM/H

The driver could have been fined $130 and be awarded 4 Demerit points. However, in this case, NO summons action will be taken against the driver.

PHEW! Lucky me lol.. I cant even remember why i drive along bukit timah at that time lol.. Maybe some one driving my car? haha.. i know i finding execuses =) Beta adhere to the speed limit on the road everyone! Everywhere also have TP in patrol lol..

050605

我放不过我自己

转一圈回到了原地

眼泪是一种提醒

我还爱你

my Monday

Back from soccer and here i am bloggin again. After saying out everything yesterday, i found myself not so moody today. Meet up with gary over loke place for swimming in the morning. We relax in the pool under the sun and i told him about how i feeling and how remorseful tat things out like these for me and also for shu min and her. We been contacting again recently and it really make me think alot bout our past. The past memories tat belong to only two of us. our world, our 050605. Everything is still loaded in my mind. EVERYTHINGS.....

I am sorry shu min for not answering ya call or replying you. I dun know how to face you. I just hope you can give me up cos i dun deserve ya love for me. All the while, i been thinking bout her even when i out with you. I really sorry. SORRY tat i cant bring myself to love another gal now. DEEP now in my heart, i know very clearly wat i want.... i really hope i can be back with her. I believe i will be happy again. If i not happy being with you, tat is not call love. Till now, i believe happiness will only happen when ya be with de person tat ya wanta be with. Just hope everything turn out well for everyone..

To DAVE TEO, LOVE IS ALL BOUT HAPPINESS

SORRY sorry SORRY sorry

Yesterday I finally took up the courage to tell shu min aobut my feeling towards our rs and my past rs. I cant hide anymore and i cant be unfair to shu min also.. Till now, i really cant get over my past rs yet. I still miss and think of her every now and then. Even some time when i out with ya, how i hope de person sitting beside me is the one whom i miss badly and love. I shouldnt have start a new rs so soon. And now i hurting ya.

Rx is right bout me. She can see that i tryin to start a new rs to move on and try 4get bout my past. The fact is i cant. I cant. I CANT. To some extend, i was thinking am i taking you as a replacement for her? AM I? AM I? I feel tat to a large extend I am.. These few weeks tat i am with you, i find that my mind and heart is tellin me to tell ya tell truth bout how i feel. But I dare not speak up to you. I finally pick up the courage to tell you and i know i hurt u badly. I REALLY SORRY shu min. SORRY.

Words cant express everything tat i wanta tell you. I just suck cos i hurt ya badly. I fail as a bf to you. =( I tell ya the truth cos i dun wanta lie to myself and you anymore. i dun wanta be in a rs with you but on the other hand keep thinking of her, missing her, hoping to be back with her. Ya deserve one guy tat onli truly belong to you onli. I not de one min min. I thank you for those laughters tat ya given me. I know deep in my heart who i want and i apologise sincerely to you.

IT SO UNFAIR TO YOU.. SORRY SHU MIN

I finally know wat i want when i was drinking with rx yesterday also. She tell me to make up my mind and not to be one tat hide away from wat i want. I know tat I cant never ever 4get our 050605 memories. Those good times, sad time,angry time tat we spend are alway on my mind. Nothing can change tat. The fact tat i lose you is my fault and i regret it. Wat i tell ya is the truth. All de while i tryin to avoid you is cos i feel tat ya happy with ya rs now and tat i too ashamed to tell ya how i feel bout you. But i let everything out to you on sat.

Given a chance, i hope i can turn back time. TIME OF HAPPINESS AND LOVE. Am i too late to realise all these? can everything change again? I just want my own happiness. One tat i believe i will love deeply and never take it for granted again. Given the chance again......

I am still missing HER alot alot.

050605

BACK to ZERO

I am feeling dam dam tired after today parade drills under the hot burning sun. But thank god it rain just now =) kinda tough but still able to take it.. I bet no one enjoy doing drills under the hot sun lol..

Lastly, The feelin of missing someone is terrible. Gloomy. Hurt. Miserable. Pathetic. Troubled =(

越爱越难过 BY 吴克群

如果说你要走

我不会留

我不去管以后

然后我们说清楚

一句话就够

如果说你要走

我不会留

我不去管以后

多么痛

多么的难过

别越爱越难过

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RDdfciqcWFI

爱太痛 By 吴克群

能不能不爱了

因为爱太痛了

我痛得快死了

却无法把你忘了

能不能不爱了

爱情它太痛了

我痛得快死了

却无法把爱割舍

... 我不能睡 ...

我不能够

不能够不爱了


A song with meaningful lyrics. A song that describe most ppl's feelings.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfesVHOIIB4

转机

凌晨的飞机
最孤单的飞行
从相机里面检视着回忆
背景是残影
我哪里都不想再去
到哪里都触景伤情
把遗憾托运
易碎的情绪我手提


想腻在一起
我却身不由己
你每次伤心 我每次缺席
遥远的距离
我以为我们的爱情
誓言里还会有转机
没想到陌生机场
写下结局
各自的转机


我放不过我自己
转一圈回到了原地
眼泪是一种提醒 我还爱你
让一切归零
我放不过我自己
仍相信爱会有奇迹
人群中我找到你
我抱着你
我们的爱情
还未完待续

TiRiNg FrIdAy

Alot of things just appear and floating in my mind today. MOODY FRIDAY! =(

Off to sleep now. NIGHT!

HOme SweeT HoMe

Back home from parade training lol.. another tiring day! tmr have to wake up at 5am as i need to reach camp by 6am.. WTH right? =(

Baby let stop all these arguementssss and back to loving terms k? =) SORRY GAL if i make ya sad this morning. 对不起, 亲爱的!

Anyway there a new HK drama serial that i going to watch call 桌球天王. This show is about why a professional snooker player hang up his boots during his most glory days and how various competitors try different means of way to force him out to spare with them. Ultimately their aim is to win the best player and become a snooker MASTER! Watch it if ya guys are interested! One more show for me to catch le lol.. =)

Anyway recently in 2009, i just completed watching 学警狙击, 珠光宝气 & 与敌同行. All are really wonderful show to watch. =) I going to take a rest now le.. cant take it liao.. legs, hands and back aching like hell.. NIght everyone...

=Moody Wed=

• I not happy now, dam not happy NOW!
• Just as i thought my past r/s fail to work out, all the lies SURFACE UP ONE BY ONE
• Just as i start to let go of my past r/s with 'her', my current one start to have problems
• WHY are guys and maybe gals so desperate to come in between a couple?
• WHY CANT A MARRIED MAN BE TRUE TO HIS WIFE?
• Why is a r/s so hard to maintain?
• Why is the role of a bf so farking farking hard to play?
• Why do gals easily FEEL touch by guy's actions?
• SO MANI WHY AND WHO CAN GIVE ME AN ANS? BLOODY FARK UP DAY

Quality time spent!

I not going to work this and next week as i involve in parade all the way till 17th april. Hiaz no work but got parade drills lol.. =( Anyway have a busy weekend spending time with my gf, family, friends, bff and most memorable time at the car workshop! =)

On friday, after my parade, i drop down to SILENT to check out some of the lightning accessories and in the end, i spent about hundred dollars there. Making my interior lightning brighter lol... Meet up with roger, ken foo, mark and his gf at jurong bird park there for prawning and tok cock session. First time see ppl prawning till the whoe rod also drop into the pond lol.. bth! My gf come join afterwards. However, that is de day that we have our first arguement also. Not going to blog here bout wat happen but we are on good and loving terms already =) When for supper afterwards before heading back home.

On sat, go down to east side for soccer as usual. When over to ubi carmart and tint my window and also install a grounding wire. wait for approx 1and half hours for my car to be done up lol.. Outcome make me dam suprise lol.. those who drive and sit in my car will unds le lol.. =) Went back home to wash and tidy up my car after tat. Suppose to meet up with the guys at night, but it was cancel. So i wait for baby to finish her work and gathering at around 1am before meeting her =)

Woke up at noon on sun and went out for family lunch at bukit panjang plazza. These few sunday i have been going out lunch with my parents lol.. i like a mama's boy liao.. haha.. meet my baby at gombak mrt and send her down to causeway point to meet her friend before i leave to meet ken foo at his place. Meet roger and gary at seragoon plazza for a short while before leaving around 11pm to meet rx at siglap. Suppose to meet her at 11pm but pick up her around 11.20pm before going to downtown to catch a movie - CONFESSION OF A SHOPAHOLIC. Reach on time before entering the theatre at 11.50pm sharp! The reason why we are not late for the show is cause I am a fast driver! haha... Quite a nice show though. The show more appealing to gals and ppl like rx la.. shop and shop and shop one.. haha.. went for supper and chit-chat session at upper east coast before proceeding home. =)

Isla Fisher as Rebecca in the movie


Lookin at the calendar, next wed is 15th le lol... =)

Going to bath and prepare go camp to report for parade drills le lol................

-SHAG OUT-

After 2 days of parade, i completely tired and shag out lo.. Need to rehearse for 2 parade, 2 differnent arm drills, 2 different formation. how to remember sia? Beside doing drills, i ahve to make sure my boots shiny shiny.. Tat mean every night have to polish up my boots lol.. =( tough period, tough life.... But de fact tat today is friday kinda make me feel beta..

MY LAST WEEKEND TMR

After this week, my sat will be takejn up my NDP parade rehearsal. No more sat activities like soccer or mj all the way till august... =(

For nation, For pride, For glory

Random things tat i wanta say to diff ppl:

Baby: thanks for ya support! i know ya care and unds wat i going through now. like wat i say, ya will be busy with ya work n i busy with my parade, we will still make time for each other right? =) but i may not meet ya so often for supper le lol.. haa. hmmmm will ya still want a malay bf? cos i think i going to be very very very dark soon.. how? Watever happen, we support each other k? love ya gal... ^_^

Gary: ya beta dun MIA! i know ya gf is back.. but tat doesnt mean ya no time to meet me.. remember my monday is free! call or msg me sometime wont kill you right? ya already not playin soccer with me liao, so beta make time for me!!!!!

Rx: i know ya not feelin good recently but dun worry ya bff never disappear lol.. cheer up and meet up soon! I promise i will brain wash you! =)

Mama n Papa: i know ya all lookin for new car now. If tat de case the vios pass down to me la.. i know vios old car but i dun mind wat. ya all mind for wat? After that i sell my car lol.. win-win situtaion right? wat there to think about? FURTHERMORE I YA SON LEI!!!!!! =)

(PS: i no guts to say to them, tat why say in my blog)

"Don't give up at half time. Concentrate on winning the second half."

=Weekend=

1st april = april fool day = my 1st ever parade rehersal day! haiz.. Wake up at 8plus and here i am bloggin in front of my computer.. I slept from 7 pm till today 8plus lol.. super power! i sorry baby for failing to wake up and meet ya.. =( i think ya right, once i hit the bed i sure have difficulties to wake up lol... hahaa..

anyway spent my weekend quite meaningfully ba.. on sat morning, went down for soccer as usual at aljunied. After which, went over my gf's place to fetch her and her mum down to amk there to offer offerings and pray to their ancestors. Hmmm i such a nice and good bf right? haha.. You could see my gf pullin a long black face cos she could not sit in the front passenger seat as rayna was sitting in front.. ^_^ Meet up with gary over at bukit timah plazza there for lunch before sendin rayna and roger home! i hit home to take a nag before going to meet my gf and the others at night.... Went over to ken loke place at night after fetchin my gf from bugis.. Been sometime since we went over his place for poker le lol.. i can still remember the ANG's brothers losing everything that they have lol.. hahaha.. my gf managed to learn abit from the way i play.. i suppose.. ^_^ overall win only 10bucks which is just enough to cover my petrol expenses lol.. Fetch my gf down to meet her friend afterwards.... Hmm, in dream land at around 4.30am!!!

On Sun, have to wake up at 7plus am to go to cck to pray to my grandfather.. mean the whole night i only slept for bout 2 hours plus.. Dam power lol.. Nevertheless, it still good to see my uncles and cousin.. Alot of tok-cock session and conversation between us lol... went for late breakfast after tat.. At noon time, me being such a sweet and good bf pick my gf and sent her to work lol... =) Hit back home to do some home cleaning and play mj with my family. Meet up with rx at night after she reach Singapore. Back from genting and managed to win quite a large sum of money! So i guess she confirm enjoy her genting trip alot de lol.. ha.. We hit down to bedok there for dinner cum supper before leaving at around 11 plus. Meet my gf after tat and i fetch her down to beauty world there for her supper. She such a greedy and big appetite eater lol.. hahaha. Dun scold me wor... It is a fact wat.. =) Anyway baby, i wont 4get the no of miss call that i receive from you on either thur or fri lol.. wahahahaha...

Lookin at the time now, i have to prepare to go to camp for my marching session le lol... =(