150409 - DAM SAD DAY

Met her yesterday. She told me that she still miss me and the past. But it too late for us. She dun wanta hurt him. And I really unds de situation that she was in. When we were eating dinner, i already realised how things have change for us. She very in love now. I dun wanta see her stuck in this situation. All the while, she had never say tat we will get back together. She only told me to move on cos i not worth her love and tat she claimed tat i might find another beta gal out. HOW am i going to accept another gal if i cant let go off her and really wanta be with her? Either she single or with him. There no ZM in her life? Onli memories.... Memories are meant to be kept onli. NOW i finally unds..

After sending her back home, i go for a spin and that when i decided to go down to west coast alone. I wanta be alone. Sitting in the car, reading her diary make me feel dam dam sad. i cry like shit. FIRST TIME I CRY till i need to breath very hatd. All the memories came flooding back. But why do i wait till now then regret? why do i change too late?

ZM, face the fact. IT JUST TOO LATE.. TOO TOO LATE. Everything is too late already. TIME and FATE are not on my side.

Gary and rx thanks for tryin to ask me out to acccompany me. But being alone yesterday make me feel beta. Yesterday suppose to be my 1st month with shu min, i still remember tat. BUT i really dun wanta hurt you anymore. I really know what i want in my life. SO i hope u can find another goal in ya life. Be happy. SORRY once again..

WAT IS LOVE? I been askin myself this qns since i woke up.

Going to go parade soon. DAM no mood. Heart and Eyes dam pain. How to do the drills in this type of condition?