SORRY sorry SORRY sorry

Yesterday I finally took up the courage to tell shu min aobut my feeling towards our rs and my past rs. I cant hide anymore and i cant be unfair to shu min also.. Till now, i really cant get over my past rs yet. I still miss and think of her every now and then. Even some time when i out with ya, how i hope de person sitting beside me is the one whom i miss badly and love. I shouldnt have start a new rs so soon. And now i hurting ya.

Rx is right bout me. She can see that i tryin to start a new rs to move on and try 4get bout my past. The fact is i cant. I cant. I CANT. To some extend, i was thinking am i taking you as a replacement for her? AM I? AM I? I feel tat to a large extend I am.. These few weeks tat i am with you, i find that my mind and heart is tellin me to tell ya tell truth bout how i feel. But I dare not speak up to you. I finally pick up the courage to tell you and i know i hurt u badly. I REALLY SORRY shu min. SORRY.

Words cant express everything tat i wanta tell you. I just suck cos i hurt ya badly. I fail as a bf to you. =( I tell ya the truth cos i dun wanta lie to myself and you anymore. i dun wanta be in a rs with you but on the other hand keep thinking of her, missing her, hoping to be back with her. Ya deserve one guy tat onli truly belong to you onli. I not de one min min. I thank you for those laughters tat ya given me. I know deep in my heart who i want and i apologise sincerely to you.

IT SO UNFAIR TO YOU.. SORRY SHU MIN

I finally know wat i want when i was drinking with rx yesterday also. She tell me to make up my mind and not to be one tat hide away from wat i want. I know tat I cant never ever 4get our 050605 memories. Those good times, sad time,angry time tat we spend are alway on my mind. Nothing can change tat. The fact tat i lose you is my fault and i regret it. Wat i tell ya is the truth. All de while i tryin to avoid you is cos i feel tat ya happy with ya rs now and tat i too ashamed to tell ya how i feel bout you. But i let everything out to you on sat.

Given a chance, i hope i can turn back time. TIME OF HAPPINESS AND LOVE. Am i too late to realise all these? can everything change again? I just want my own happiness. One tat i believe i will love deeply and never take it for granted again. Given the chance again......

I am still missing HER alot alot.

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