Back Again

I been MIA for some time again lol.. Finally I am able to fork out some time to blog and to update some new songs here.. =) 2009 is ending and it been a not so great year for me lol.. I shall blog soon again. But for now, I am going to watch some of movies which my bro has donwloaded.

Belated Merry Xmas to EVERYYONE! Count-down to 2010 NOW! =) Cheers!

Happy birthday COJW*

NOV 12 use to be a special day that belong to only the 2 of us. But since start of the yr, I know it no longer the same. Some ppl let go of things easily, while some ponder left ponder right, and they back to the same old ground again. I know I have tried very hard to start a new rs, to 4get the past, to move on happily, to work hard etc etc, but just now everything came pouring back again... Those 3 yrs of celebration was meaningful, memorable, loving... But today on her 21st, her major celebration is on without me. Simply put it tis way, in her life there is no longer a place for me.

Wat bout her in my life? There is always a special place reserve for her. n I REALLY MEAN IT. Love is such a complicated thing. We can move on strongly ahead, but once a major date or important date came bout, we are back to square one again. =( Is this worth it? I really dun know.. Sometime I really wonder to myself, have i really 4gotten bout her? Have I already move on? No doubt, I have already move on strongly but there is alway something missing. FEEL. I dun know how I can get this feel back. I have try new rs but it fail miserably.... Wat do I need to do? =( Maybe i wake up fine tmr? Is this another of my emo night? or mood swing nite? =(

Today is her big day but I cant help being emo.. If ya still reading my blog, just wanta wish ya happy 21st and all the best for everything tat ya doing and going to do... one day, maybe one day, we may meet again. Hope that you may be bless with the happines and love that I fail to give it to you.. Once again, Happy 21ST to COJW..

UPdating soon*

Realised tat I not been bloggin much lately lol.. I will update my blog soon.. maybe it time for some 'renovation work' to be done.. add in new applications, new songs, new background, new pics, new themes etc....

Anybody wanta help me? =)

Injured again*

Injured my left ankle yesterday. AGAIN >_<>_<''

Anyway suppose to meet up with rx, nana and the rest of sec sch mates for steamboat dinner over at Bugis but I really cant make it lol.. Dad sent his car to workshop and I cant possibly take train down lol.. need to walk and stand and I doubt I can walk properly =( Rx say I suck and I know why lol.. hahaaa.. steamboat dinner has been postpone since two or three weeks ago before we all decided to meet up yesterday lol.. SORRY Pals, I cock up again lol =( Will make up to you all next time round k? =)

GG and Sini came visit me yesterday night lol.. Some of u might think how sweet of them to visit me right? I DOUBT SO LOL... I know both of them dun intend to come find me one lol.. one is got time to spare while waiting for gf to finish work so drop down my house visit me, the other just finish visiting his friend around my eighbourhood then make it a point to come over look for me lol.. His real motive is to actually come my house watch soccer game but he 4got tat I terminate my SCV long time ago lol >_<''' THEY DUN REALLY CARE BOUT ME ONE. HIAZ... I have to look after myself then..

Ankle sprained, how am I going to work tmr? cant walk normally but cant be everytime taking MC lol... Tell me dad help me massge later again ba. PAIN!

Gary's "Chalet"*

Went over GG's place to stay and 'camp' over last weekend (190909 -200909) since his parents were away for their honeymood holidays wor! =) Soccer as usual in the morning with the peeps before going over to GG;s house... Slack and play one round of MJ with GG, wei min n roger while waiting for the rest to come for dinner. Going to be a crazy night fill with MJ, Beers, and Cigs? hahaa..

Went over to aljunied there to eat and order quite alot of food lol.. The guys as usual order Bottle of Beer while the obedient dave just order waterchestnut to drink! =) haha.. At one point of time, we can be seen laughing and talkin loudly apparent for wat reason I cant remember le lol.. hahaa.. Just remember me & wm laughing all the way... I guess the guys pour some beer into my chestnut and make me abit drunk lol.. =( The normal quiet dave wont behave in such 'rowdy' behaviour lol... haa..

MJ over at GG's house till early morning around 4plus before going to sleep.. Woke up at 9am for soccer again on Sunday lol.. Slept less then 4 hours and we going over for soccer again... =( Hiaz.. that is when I injured my left ankle again.. Kana kick at ankle lol.. Dam pain!!! Suppose to have steamboat with GG and the rest in the evening but I went over to IKEA with my parents to buy some rags for our living room.. In the end, decided to go back home after tat to rest lol.. ankle pain, not enough sleep = Restless, headache, moody lol.. =) Anyway win around 50bucks for mj and have a really great weekend with the rest! It been some time since the few of us stay overnight together right? hahaa.

More stay-over sessions to come k? =)

Updating*

I am back to my blog again.. and I guess tis going to be a long post... Not been bloggin for 2weeks and now one time blog out everything lol... =)

090909 - 100909
On MC for 2days due to swollen ankle lol.. Alway having injuries here and there... =( Used to have someone to care for me when I substain injuries or when I was sick.. But the 'Care & Love' is no longer with or on me... Sometime how i wish to lead a simple life with the person I love on a far away island... Just two of us.. Swimming, sun-tanning, lookin at the stars.. simple little activities yet so 'distant' from me... Not going to be too lengthy or emo-ing here. Watever happen, happen already... Sorry 'menlet' 0*0*0*

110909
Went to IT fair and managed to buy my long awaited PS3 lol.. cost me about 800dollars and also order a 32-inch sony LCD TV. However, in the end have to cancel the TV order as my mama say tat my uncle have one extra set tat he can give it to us.... wat happen in the end make me boil lol.. THE TV IS A LCD with BIG 'BACKSIDE' lol.. BTH lol.. so big how to put in my room lei? my mum make me cancel my purchase for no reason.. >_<'' Think also know right... got ppl wanta give ya tv how can be flat screen LCD lei? haiz... take this as a lesson learnt lol.. ultimately my mum also wanta me save money ma.. so i cant blame her too.. communication breakdown.. lan lan lol.. =( anyway i still have my PS3 to play... cant wait for PES 2010 to release!

120909 - 130909
First day back in sch lol!!! 2yrs since i last touch a note and textbook.. Was dam suprised to see Jason studyin at SIMM too... Got kaki same class as me still not so bad n lonely lol.. haha.. Have been task one individual and one group project for this bridging subject lol.. =( NIGHTMARE... Lesson is kinda interesting as the lecturer keep using real-life experiences to illustrate to us the market logisitc operations.. Also manage to know a few new friends! Yipee.. Weekend was spend at attending lesson from 9am to 4pm lol.. No soccer on sat as study come first.. hahaaa...

Shall continue bloggin again then... my eyes tired n dry le lol.. NIGHT everyone.. =)

2weeks without posting!*

Dave is too lazy too update his blog lol.. =( busy with work, sch assignment, mj, soccer etc etc... haha... I am always finding execuses for myself..

I shall update real soon.. HOPEFULLY... =)

GM FUN FAIR*

Nothin much happen except workin home workin home lol.. =) Anyway went back to GMSS last saturday, 050909, for the fun fair and also to participate in the street soccer competition organise by the sch.. =)

Play soccer in the morning over at aljunied before proceeding back to sch in the afternoon. Met up with rx & euncie to go back together lol.. Suppose to meet nana also but she last minute play MIA! Tat so bad bad bad bad of u nana!!!! =( Nevertheless it good to catch up with rx n euncie too! Been sometime since we last met up le lol.. =) Went around sch and the environment was superd! Indoor basketball court! But a smaller street soccer court lol >_<''

Went around the sch and stoppin at some stalls to buy food which we felt comfortable to consume lol - ice-cream! =) It was also nice to see some of ex sch mates like zhi hui, monica etc etc.. Needless to say, we also went around lookin for some of our former teachers like Mrs Toh, Miss Ng etc etc... Time flies so fast and it been more then 5 yrs since I left sec sch... It still beta to be a child lol.. Play & play & play onli.. Dun need stress over money & work!!!

Soccer competition around 4pm and our team fail to make the final as we lost our last group game which we suppose to win.. But it was a great team effort as I really think that we play really well.. Mark score 4 goals, wm and roger and me each got one goal each! GG lousy la.. never score goal.. haha.. He still able to play soccer is already a big bonus consider he gone through so mani operations lol.. =)

GG, ALSO THANK U FOR PULLING DOWN MY SHORT AH!!!! HORNY GAY! Lucky i got wear underwear tat day, if GONE LIAO!!! >_<'''

Went to Jurong Point after the game with rx and euncie to have dinner lol.. Thanks peeps for following me back to west side to pass the car back to my sugar daddy! haa.. =) Walk around and slack over at JP before going down to Ken Loke's place for poker session.. Lose 20dollars lol.. No luck in POKER... Furthermore I was feelin dam headache lol.. =( Morning soccer, Afternoon soccer = Headache in the night! =(

Some pics that we took in sch:

Happy children riding on HORSEs.. I too old for these lol..

BACK to STUDY in SEPT*

After much debate and thoughts, I finally decided to study for my degree in logistic and supply chain from SIMM. =) My mum has no more issues of me going SIMM study lol.. haa.. Anyway I have already pay the fees for my bridging already so there is no turning back now.. Btw, I pay $2900 for 7 bridging subjects lol.. >_<>_< I going to be a poor chap once again! Nevertheless, I still kinda excited bout going sch.. hahaa...

MJ with the rest of the peeps yesterday over at wm's house and roger house lol.. I was still having a bad flu but still keen to play mj and entertain them lol.. haha. Managed to win around 18bucks lol.. Just enough to cover my food expenses for the whole day.. haha..

Wat make my day even sweeter was a phone call from Jessie.. haha.. Been sometime since we last chat and meet up! Nevertheless, we still had so mani things to talk bout lol! =) It great to catch up with someone whom I have not contacted for some time though! Shall see ya soon Jess! (Provided ya reading my blog lol.. haa) Some one pls remind me tat she owe me a dinner treat lol.. =)

N davie is stayin home today on a Saturday.. Since I am single, I not been going out often and spending money unwisely le lol.. hahahaa... I know kinda bull-shit cos I still spending money like there is no tomorrow! =( Watever it is, I am happy to lead the life I am having now!

Best Friends, BFF, Friends, 'Sisters', family love, carrer, study, good health (as of now) etc etc etc.. Wat more can I wish for? =) hmmm maybe romance? When time is right, it will definitely come right? =)

Going watch my DVD yet again.. =) I wanta watch soccer!!!!!!

Tired yet AGAIN*

Feelin tired and sleepy when the time is onli 7.35pm lol.. OMG.. I cant imagine sleepin at this time! I use to be a night owl.. But those days seem to be over.. =( Where de dave tat used to sleep at 3am? used to play mj till wee hours? I think i just getting old.. Hmmm or is it due to the heavy workload that I currently having? HELP... I think I need to go away for a SHORT BREAK, or maybe HOLIDAY, or maybe going on a blind date help? hahaa...

Talkin bout blind date, my enick wanta sent me to those 'SINGLE' event on Sept 12 lol.. where guys get to meet gals from other govt service jobs lol.. >_<>_<''' The event emphasize on "widening social circle" and there various games being held lol.. BUT to me, it sound just like a BLIND-DATE lol.. haha.. But, smart dave managed to turn down the offer! I guess I sill too young to go for events like these.. hahaa.. =) Hmmm maybe if I am 30yrs old and still single.. I CONFIRM GO! haa..

I DECIDED TO APPLY LEAVE ON MONDAY! I wanta have a good weekend and rest! =)

Troubled ME*

Feeling sick still but definitely much beta then yesterday lol.. Look like my body is telling me to take a rest now.. If I still not feelin dam good, I will take MC tmr.. =) The reason why I never take mc yesterday is cos my work load is piling up lol.. Some of my colleagues are handing over their appointments to the junior ranks and I have so much things to help them clear. Scrapping of defect items, demanding of items etc etc.. ALL of them involve so much paper work and follow up actions lol.. First time I complain bout my work in my blog ah? haha.. This show tat I am really busy nowadays!

Talk to GG in the morning tat I may not be taking up the offer in SIMM even though I been accepted due to serveral reasons:

--> My mum wanta me go UniSIM or at least SIM instead as she feel that SIMM not really recognise. Quarrel with her over this and out of anger, she say she not going help me pay my sch fees lol!! L.I.A.O....... >_<

--> Secondly, maybe I should continue working to save up more money so that my burden wont be so heavy. With more savings, anything is possible lol.. =)

--> Thirdly, I think maybe I just finiding execuses not to study as I really dun have the mood to mug/study for exam lol.. or worst of all to rush assignment within deadline! =(

Haiz, cant decide over this issue lol.. Study also so mani problems! Maybe I should just work and stay in the force till I am 55yrs old since the new scheme entitle each one of us to work till 55yrs old! =) will ponder hard these few days before makin my decision lol.. =)

I HATE flu! My small little nose red like a clown now! =( BUT TAT DOESNT MEAN I AM A CLOWN LOL! =) GO AWAY FLU VIRUS! GO FIND someone else!! PLS leave me alone...

Happy WEEK yet again*

Even though I now feelin abit sick-lish, I cant get to sleep lol.. So I am going to blog again.. =) Been meetin up with the rest of the peeps lately after work! Lookin back, I been playin MJ almost every week lol.. MJ become like a weekly activity for me lol.. and also for my GG, wei min and roger.. haha.. WE can form a FOUR-SOME MJ team and play every week lol.. =)

Tuesday (18/08/09)
Met up with Ah Foo and GG for a get-away trip err err to Tampine Mall lol.. hahaa.. Even though Tampine One been open long ago, it my first trip there lol.. As you all can see, I not been going shopping for quite some time lol.. >_< Went to Tampine One, Tampine Mall, Century Square and even Tampine Central! haha.. Walk till out leg tired lol.. =) But it a fruitful trip as I managed to buy quite a few things like a wireless set of keyboard n mouse, usb adapter, a new long sleeve shirt etc etc.. Happy shopping but I dun think my wallet happy to 'part' with the money lol.. =(

Wednesday (19/08/09)
Receive my FIRST credit card from POSB lol.. haha.. POSB EVERYDAY CREDIT. =) Finally I got 1C again.. After my aveo is gone, I left with NO C.. Now another C is here again.. hahhaa.. I must practise cost-savings lol.. Cant anyhow spend and swipe card lol.. I WILL DIE BIG TIME! lol.. I have to be trifty from now onwards! I dun wanta be a poor chap.. Pls let me strike some rich-ness!! SOS call... =)

Thursday (20/08/09)
Went to MEGATEX Fair with GG and Ah Foo yet again.. I was planning to buy a 32-inch LCD Tv for my room ma.. =) Anyway, I change back to my orginal room with my youngest brother lol.. No more stayin in a store-room look alike lol.. hahaha... Back to my old room mean I can put a bigger TV! There alot of attractive sales which I super tempted to buy lol.. However, I managed to control myself.. hahaa.. Never buy any TV yet. With COMEX FAIR being held in 10sept, maybe I can get a beta and more attractive deal? haha..

Friday (21/08/09)
Soccer over at FICO sports hub with my camp mates at 9pm all the way till 11 plus lol.. Great and wonderful place to relax lol.. First time there and the turf is somehow nicer then the one at ECP lol.. =) totally enjoy it! AND one person only need pay 10bucks! =) There are plans to make soccer over at FICO a weekly event lol.. I wont mind for sure! Soccer with great music, nice breeze and a few gals to see.. WHY NOT lei? hahaha...

Had some arguement with my mum in the morning but it not going to dampen my mood for the week lol.. =) lazy to elaborate wat had happen lol.. but some of them already know wat has happen.. Watever it is, I am still the happy-go-lucky davie!

PICS time*

Here some of the pics tat we took when pearly was back in SINGAPORE:

3 Lovely Sisters! BUT One is still a geniune MAN! =)

Taken in the center of the pavement lol ! >_<

Eunice sayin I am a good guy and pearly trying to tell gals out there to run to me and catch me if not it too late already... hahaa =)

Pearly cant bear to see wat we doing to her lol.. see how 'pervert' eunice is!!! haha...

Tall Davie, 'Abit short' pearly

Nevertheless still My beloved....

SIS PEARLY!

Last WEEK activities*

Not been bloggin as frequently as last time lol.. Guess laziness creeping into me le.. =( Someone pls remind me to blog can? haha.. I using this blog as my diary and when I old I can browse through each entires and refresh my mind bout the past ma! But provided when I still know how to surf the net when I old lol.. =)

Anyway nothin particular happen except tat I FINALLY received the CONFIRMATION LETTER FROM SIMM (Singapore Institute of Materials MAnagement) WOR! And also not 4getting tat my beloved sister, Pearly is back from aussie on 12/08 for a few days! 2 good news in a week! Does tat mean I going to strike lottery soon? haha.. Think too much again.. haha.. =) Going to study for my degree soon! happy? stress? MIX feelings ba.. To work n study part time is sure one tedious thing to handle.. But I cant afford to screw it up.. Payin close to 17K to study lol.. Hiaz.. For my future, I ahve to endure! IF GG can handle stress, I also can.. hahaa.. =)

ZM GOING BACK TO SCH on SEPT FOR BRIDGING!

AND Finally able to see pearly once agian lol.. However, I only get to meet up with her on FRIDAY, 14/08 along with GG and Eunice.. Apply leave specially on fri so as to be able to meet PEARLY lol.. I such a sweet guy ah? BUT why no gals want me now? so sad... =(

Wednesday (12/08/09)
Met up with sharon aka xue fen for the first time lol! haha.. Know her for close to 2 months before we both decided to meet up lol.. =) MEt up for our movie session - HANGOVER. Went over to aljunied to pick her up after her sch before going down to cine lol. Quite a suprise that even though we see each other for the first time, there still so mani things for us to tok bout lol.. haha.. Maybe cos we both are very friendly? or maybe social-able? hahaa.. Anyway the movie was so hilarious and funny lol.. 4**** out of 5! A MUST WATCH SHOW! Loving every moments of it! =) Finished movie at 1plus am before home sweet home! =)

Friday (14/08/09)
Met up with pearl and eunice in the eveningat orchard as I was there with GG in the afternoon.. Went shopping with GG first before meetin the rest. Been sometime since we went shoppin lol.. haha.. Went to ION orchard for the first time too.. =) Anway went to ECP for dinner without GG as he need to meet his future-wife-to-be! haha.. Went to the hawker center as pearly wanta eat local food lol.. Order quite alot of food like oysters, sting ray, fried omelette etc etc.. Foods which pearly had not eaten for sometime in aussie wor!

Went back to town to slack and relax.. Chit-chat, gossips, laughters all the way till midnight lol.. I becoming more like a gal liao.. haha.. >_< But nevertheless, had a great time catching up with them.. It such a pity tat I only get to meet pearly once lol.. So Sorry bout tat sis! Busy with work and other commitments lol.. hahaa.. =) Nevertheless, I will wait for u to be back again pearly.

TO PEARLY:

Good luck for ya study sis! Cant wait to see ya back in singapore again.. Maybe when i in Aussie for my one week study next yr then i can look for you lol.. hahaa... Good Idea ah? =) MISS ya so much lol.. SIS 4ever or BRO 4ever? hahaa..

BAck AGAIN*

Back to my blog again.. MIA for one week and back to my favourite past time again - BLOGGIN.. hahaa.. Been clearing my leave this few days. Last week, as usual meet up with the peeps for mj, soccer etc...

03/08 - 09/08
Nothin spectacular happen except NDP 09 on sunday! =) Finally my parade is over! No more sat training, no more going back to airbase or marina platform on a sat morning! Lookin back, I kinda enjoy the atmoshphere when I standing in front of the platform lol.. The feelin is superd and great.. It definitely a life-time memory for me.. BUT once is enough already! I DUN WANTA KANA AGAIN NEXT YR LOL... PLSS.. >_<''' With parade finally over, does it mean beta days ahead for me? or stormy night? hmmm

mj with nana, eunice and wei min on thur over at wei min's place lol.. been sometime since i last see lina and eunice! It great to see u guys again! Thanks nana for the little presents that she brought for me from USA! I appreciate tat dude! =) Finally able to see nana back in sing after enjoying close to 3 months of holiday in USA lol.. I so jealous of you! I will also go on a road trip once i strike lottery! I not greedy like other ppl who wanta strike top prize.. Just let me stike toto second group prize can already! I will be very happy le lol.. =) I be prayin hard for my lucky numbers to open!

Show & more SHOWS*

Been keepin myself occupy by watchin drama series and DVD recently.. Thought can save more money by staying at home, but money goes to the DVD rental show lol.. >_< The uncle happy till can give me discounts lol.. so can imagine how much I been spending ah? haha.. Anyway I have already finished watchin Harper Island, Gossip Girls Season 2, The unit Season 1, ID精英, 仁心解碼, 巾帼枭雄 to name a few lol.. In progress of finishing 烈火雄心III.. More shows to come next.. I think i going to be a TV freak soon.. Or maybe I am one already! =(

Kinda lazy to update my blog recently. But I notice one symptom of mine! I always blog on a MONDAY lol.. =) Therefore, I concluded tat Monday is my blogging day! Beside blogging and watching dvd, I also engage in meaningful activities like MJ and soccer. Furthermore I also back to my "KEEPING FIT" regime - skipping, sit-up and push up.. Jogging and swimming to be included soon.. real soon.. =) I also told the rest of the peeps that we should engage more sports activities like badminton, volleyball etc etc.. Play a variety of sports not only can keep fit but also pass time ma.. Paint ball session inside my agenda too! =)

Will be playin more soccer after my NDP to prepare for the soccer tournament in SEPT in GMSS.. Those were the days when we just play soccer whole day, whole week, whole month, whole semester. If the soccer tournament really take place, it will be a warm welcome back to secondary sch for us ah? =)

Hmmm wondering if you guys notice a change in me? I NOT EMO DAVE AGAIN.. & I been spending my time more wisely instead of emoing, regretting and thinking of the past.. Moving On ahead.. & tis sunday will be NDP 09! No more SAT training! BETA days ahead.. OF COS dun need EMO laa!!

you FOUND me*

Lost and insecure,

You found me, you found me

Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you? Where were you?

Just a little late.

You found me, you found me.

But in the end

Everyone ends up alone

Losing hope

The only one who's ever known

Who I am, Who I'm not, Who I want to be

No way to know

How long she will be next to me

BRAND NEW START*

I been pondering, thinking, emoing, regretting alot alot since our seperation in Jan 09. Been 6months since we parted and memories still came pouring back bits by bits... When I used to have her, I failed to treasure her. Now since she already move on, why cant I do tat? I guess I already figured out why.. Cos She my first ever true love... First gal tat i really love alot.. and also hurt the deepest.

Since she happy now in a new rs, what there for me to hold onto? I should learn to let go a few months back.. However, I fail to do so.. There something in me that tell me tat I still have hope, still have a chance.. But the day when she text me, I know I just lyin to myself.. I never ever choose to accept the reality. I choose to avoid & it not doing me any good.. I am never happy this way... Thinking back, at least we are in love with each other b4 and I guess that is enough for both of us..

Starting another rs when I have not let go of my past rs is also another incident tat i regret.. When ppl told me tat de best medicine to cure a fail rs is to start a new one, I thought it sound kinda true to me.. But it proven tat it does not work for me, instead I hurt one more ppl.. I just dun know why i sure a failure in rs? Maybe I dun know how to fall in love again? But one thing I am sure is tat I not going to repeat my past mistakes again. Never EVER...

GG alway ask me why I cant just let go of everything and start life afresh again.. I alway told him cos she is wat I want in my life.. However, I have already come to terms tat we are no longer possible... There are things in life where there is no chance of turning back. I have already decided tat I wanta lead a brand new life again. I dun wanta be emoing bout my memories or the mistakes I make again. I should be lookin ahead instead of lookin back again... Letting go might also be a blessing in disguise. =) Thanks for the memories.

Today will be the start of my new chapter. I definitely hope I can be able to do tat.. Took 6 months to come to terms with everything. I hope I not too late... it never late to change right? With support from everyone of you, I know I can move on.

AND I REALLY MEAN MOVING ON !

The 'NEW' Dave.

THE END

OF

050605

Random Friday*

Mj with wei min gary and his gf yesterday at wei min's place b4 going back to fetch my dad from work.. Second round of mj over at yx's house with wei min and roger! I becoming mj addict soon.. At this rate of playin, by age of 25yrs old i think I might have spend away all my money and savings! >_<

Anyway I on leave today.. Need to take a break after the recently concluded audit check conducted for materials and inventory management in my flight. >_< Needless to say, with me in charge sure alot of cock-up lol.. Got alot of action items to review and follow up... Slack dave going to be busy for sometime now.. sian 1/2..

Slept around 5am yesterday and here I am using msn and bloggin in the early hours of a really cold and fine Friday! I should be hitting my bed soon again! =)

wat is LOVE?*

My camp mates and I were discussing bout r/s stuff when one of my friend told us that his friend, a female, buy a car (under her name) for her bf to drive last yr. Furthermore, she help to pay the down payment for him too.. Needless to say, monthly installment of cos pay by the guy la.. =) Tat sound so sweet right? When we heard of it, we were so taken aback lol.. why did these type of things never occur to me too? haha..

Then came the WORST! The couple broke up recently and now the car is park under her house and no one is driving lol!!! The installment yet to finish paying, still have road tax and insurance to pay.. I used to own a car so I know how tedious and difficult it is to maintain one.. Furthermore, my friend told us tat she cant drive the car cos she do not have a license yet! Tat mean the car is park everyday at the carpark lol.. Heard tat she cant sold the car too as she need a lump sum of money to settle the remaining bank loan.. My second hand car need to pay the bank around 5k plus liao.. A brand new car? OMG... Tat worst... >_<

Tat really make me think bout wat is the extend of love? Does tat mean ya have to buy wat the other party one cos u love him/her? or buy the most expensive things for them cos we love them? Love is definitely not by measure of money or luxury goods. Wat happen if everyone end up like the gal? stuck with the car and debts? Love shouldnt be like this.. Even if both party ended the rs, one should never ever end up with a fiancial burden.

Thinking back, I sound so absurb when I wanta took back some of the stuffs tat I brought for her.. I am alway hot temper and unreasonable so I am sorry for my rowdy behaviour... Compare to a car, this is nothin lol.. hee.. Ppl may be sayin tat the gal is stupid to buy the car for her bf when they are not even marry yet.. However everyone is blinded by love when they are in a rs wat! There maybe times when we regret doing things tat we shouldnt do.. Thinkin back, I have no regrets in knowing and being with you.. 050605 will always be my sweet memories..

To me, love is being with the person tat ya wanta be with deep in your heart.

NDP pics*

Images not sharp.. think de camera-man never use a quality camera! 3 more weeks & I be free.. My SAT will be back soon...

Thinkin bout it, wat can I do on a SAT anyway? =(

触电*

明明是昨天的事情

怎麼今天我还在经历

一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地

想问个愚蠢问题

我们再这样下去

你猜会走到哪里

LESSON*

Was asked by my senior if I will like to go for oversea dectachment, I really dun know.

Study or Oversea Det? It time to think for my future....

& I learn one thing today - Never ever ever take your love one for granted..

Over isnt it?*

Time really flies and another 3 more SAT training and NDP will soon be over! Cant wait for everything to end.. I dread sat not only cos of training but also the time spent waiting for everything to get started... Worst thing is when there too much idle time, my mind bring me back to the past again. Sweet, Sour, loving... everything bout her n me.. Emoing at parade training? YUP, tat is ME... Can you also imagine waiting for close to 2 hours for the bus to bring us back to paya lebar airbase? Lucky my dad came to pick me up if not have to take a cab back home lol.. By the time I reached home, it was already 12.30am lol.. >_<

Been msging her few days ago.. Everything is very clear but I alway choose to avoid the facts and reality.. Why am I like tis? Her msg already told me tat ZM mean nothin to her anymore. NOTHING....

HER: I really dun wanta you be in tis state. pls move on. Just bear in mind that we'll never get back together cos i really love my bf. I hope this will make you give up.

张栋梁 - 低调

我的难过是如此低调

因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角

努力的对自己好你用微笑回报

朋友或情人不重要我的悲伤是如此低调

傻子才会哭闹就算你发现也好

我想你一定会选择假装不知道

只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

Pondering OVER AGAIN*

First day of work for me today and it a beta day compare to last week.. Wake up not so emo and not so moody.. =) Anyway b4 I 4get, I really appreciate ppl around me tat really care and concern for me.. Thanks so much to ppl like qiao e & eunice for talking senses to me in MSN and listening to my story over & over again... Appreciate tat! =) Definitely not 4getting all my good n best friends! Many thanks once again..

I still remember one sentence tat eunice say to me " so wat if both of u get back together? wat ya like is the 'old' her and not the one tat she is now" This sentence really strike me hard and make me reflect alot.. Everyone changes and maybe she is a different person now? She already know what she want in her life and I not in the picture. I guess this is my fate, my story, my memories...

I was watchin Gossip Girls Season 2 just now when Dan & Serena get back together for the third time! But in reality, in my life, it is not going to happen like tis.. As we were msgin today, she told me tat it over between us and she love really her BF alot. I had nothin to say after tat.. TOTALLY loss for words.. I have nobody to blame but myself.. Is tat wat love suppose to mean? Letting the person you love to be with another person? Or should I put it tis way - Letting her find her own happiness? Totally not in the state of mind to think bout rs anymore. IT hurts and I need time.. alot alot of time.. I still remember telling Roger tat why do we alway have to lose one thing tat know the importance of it and he told me :

This is life.. This is how we will Learn and Grow...

Watever it is, I know it too late.. How long will I need? I not sure but I just hope by occupying myself in my work and study(soon), I wont have time to think so much.. I really ok everyone.. Just having regrets tat things turn out tis way.. GG sure think tat i very naggy & emo cos I always being like tis.. But dude I cant help it and ya going to Aussie tis week.. I will miss talkin to you on the phone when I emo lol.. =(

DONT TELL ME IT'S OVER

This is such a meaningful song and lyrics really speaking of my story, wat I going through, wat I experiencing... Cant help it feelin f***k up yet again..

Baby wat wrong with you?
Are u scared that we could run into him?
And what he gonna do?
U should say that u no longer wanted him
U need to let him know
That he already got his chance
And u already got a man

This part of the lyrics seem to be wat her's bf is tellin me.. maybe wat she wanta tell me too? haiz.

Dont tell me it's over
I can tell tat it's been hurting you
I see it in your eyes
Its the first time tat I am feelin
That I am bout to cry
Just say anything but goodbye
DONT TELL ME IT'S OVER...

Simply just wat I wanta say to her from bottom of my heart... I am totally not myself today.. I can feel it.. =(

EMO SUNDAY... ALONE..

RaNdOm*

Life goes on after selling my car though I have to admit travlling from one place to another become kinda more difficult. Example going to camp for work - have to take train to CCK then change to bus! Going for NDP rehersal worst lol.. But I can still drive my dad car or even take a cabby! =) Once a week take cab also not a bad idea ba... =) At least I will have taken all the public transport - Train, Bus and Taxi.. =) Come back to think of it.. this is not the worst I have experienced in my life.. Losing her, 6months never talk to my mum, soccer betting in which I owe a big sum of money during poly came down as the worst till now... Hiaz.. When Am I going to have a successful life? Till now, I still standing here alone.. regretting wat has happened between me & her. I really really regret it... Given another chance, I will never ever ever let you go...

Hiaz.. Guesss I should not be sayin all these stuff as it wont help anymore.. Anyway these few days activities kinda pack for me execpt today - stayin home to rest after yesterday's tired NDP NE show 1..

Thur - 02/07/09
The day I sold my car.. In the end, I never went to work as I reached home around 4pm and definitely late for work lol.. Anyway met up with rx after her work and we went to ECP to relax and have our chit chat session... Rx, if you really leave for aussie to study ya beta dun 4get me hor! Pearly left for brisbane and wont be back so soon.. and b4 pearly is back, my best friend going join her also.. If one day GG also go study oversea and wont come back so soon, I dun know how my life going to be. Nevertheless, hope everyhthing well for both of you (RX & Pearl) now!

Friday - 03/07/09
First day without my car lol.. Roger was such a sweety.. Calling me at 2plus to volunteer to send me to work lol.. But I declined as I really need to be independent dude! But I appreciate it... The guys came over to my place for MJ after my night-shift work end at 10pm.. My sweet dad came over camp to pick me.. Thanks dude! =) Mj session till 4am.. I can still remember GG's attitude face.. hahaha.. Cos he alway wait for tiles le but let ppl game! Dun worry, play more and luck will come.. =) Slept at around 4plus and still have parade the next day!!!

Sat - 04/07/09
Parade the whole day till 9pm lol.. First NE show tis week and I was shift to the front row!! SIAO LIAO LOL.. I really dam nervous lol.. I almost screw up when we were given command to salute arrvial of MR President.. I failed to pull down my rifle cos the rifle sling like stuck between my shirt lol.. Lucky my friend beside me told me slowly pulled down.. Cant imagine if I really screw it up big time.. LIAO lol.. Nevertheless, the parade was a success as complimented by RSM.. =) 4 more parade to actual NDP 09! Thanks to ah ben for sending me back to Bukit Batok! However upon reaching home, took a bath and hit dreamland straightaway.. Dun even have time to take out my uniforms from my bag to put in the laundry basket lol.. TAT HOW SHAG I AM! >_<

BYE SGE6938x*

Finally, I had sold away my AVEO for a sum of $19.5k... Still need to settle the outstanding loan which mean I had to dig into my pocket and settle the remaining sum for the car.. =( Help me somebody!!! Checked with alot of dealers and tis is one of the best sum I received.. Rather then suffering more loss, I might as well sell it at this price...

NO MORE SEEING DAVE DRVING HIS RED AVEO!!! Try finding me in MRT or SBS BUS from now onwards..

Just as I thought everything was going smoothly, one of the dealer called me & told me that they need to send my car to workshop to repair as the engine and ABS light indicator is being activated... LIAO la.. I thought they wont bother bout this minor details.. BUT they told me tat it might had something to do with the engine.. LIAO.. MY heart sank lol.. Mean I had to fork out money to repair the car first before I could sell to them... NO choice lol.. This car let me drove till "Half-Dead, Half-Alife".. I only wanta know how much money I need to fork out to repay the remaining settlements lol..

Estimated to pay - at least $5K >_<

Beside sucking thumb, there nothin else I can do le lol.. Just pray servicing keep to a minmium price and that dun need to fork out so much to pay the rest of the sum lol.. PRAYING HARD NOW! Anyway, I also register myself in the same sch as GG liao - SIMM. Going to study Bachelor of Commerce in Logistic & Supply Chain Management lol.. Another sum of money going out again!! NO INPUT KEEP OUTPUT!!! Siao liao lol... >_<>

MiSsInG u*

Wake up in the morning and first thing tat came into my mind is YOU.


Ya told me to give up on you cos ya wanta me to move on
BUT where am I now?


Ya told me tat you knew me well, then do ya know wat I really feeling now?


Like wat ya told me the other time, everything had it pull and push factors. Are we really over and done with?

I wonder where YOU are. The days we had and the songs we sang together.......

IF...if...IF...if...IF*

IF I could turn back time or be given a chance again:

I'm never gonna say goodbye
cause I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
and I'd swear it all over again
and I I'm never gonna treat you bad
cause I never wanna see you sad
i swear to share your joys and you pain
and I'd swear it all over again....

MeAnInGfUl sOnG*

BUSTED - LOSING YOU

sitting here alone thinking it through trying to convince myself

that i'mnot losing you,

or can't you just forget the things i said

i was angry at the time but now i cleared my head

it was so strong, where did it all go wrong

so tell me why, i'm swimming against the tide

and i'm praying for a lifeline,

cos i'm losing you

so tell me why, you took care enough to try

are you giving up this fight, i can't stand,wont stand, losing you

you don't have to say a word its in your eyes

what can i do to convince you we need more time

and i know i may have made a few mistakes

but losing you is just too much for me to take

it was so strong, where did it all go wrong

so tell me why, i'm swimming against the tide

and i'm praying for a lifeline,

cos i'm losing you

Activities*

Had quite alot of activities this week after my work to keep me occupy..

24/06/09 (wed)
MJ with wei min yong xin and GG after my work over at wei min's place till 11pm.

25/06/09 (thur)
Soccer at Bedok reservoir with darrel, wei min, franky and rest of the group. Msg hoon hoon that I was around her place and soon we ended up playin MJ after soccer over at wei min's place again.. Haa.. Been sometime since I met up with hoon also lol.. Alway busy with EDM hor? haa.. Anyway MJ this time with ruth, hoon and ming zhi... MJ all de way from 11plus to next morning 5plus lol.. When I reached home, it was already 6.30am! Dam Shag lol..

26/06/09 (fri)
Suppose to play a friendly match over in tengah after work as the warehouse ppl had book the field for use.. However due to CAT 2 stauts extended till 5plus, alot of my camp mates decided to give this match a miss.. Same for me though.. =) Knocked off at 4pm and was told to leave the base immediately as night shift ppl is comin in.. Due to H1N1, we are divided into 2 shift work... In case one shift kana quarantine, the other shift is still ready to support daily operations.. Thus, stayin back for soccer wont go down too well for my OIC and FWO lol.. Should be stayin inhouse tonight ba.. Still kana tired even though I just woke up! Parade tmr and next week is NE SHOW 1 where the sec and pri sch students will be comin to watch us! How 'excited' lol.. >_<

Feelings*

After our breakup again, I heard alot of different opinions and comments by ppl all around me.. I really must not ever repeat my mistake again. Read through ellen's blog in which she commented "this gf of his is so in love with him yet.. he is playing a fool.. keep breaking up and patching back with her" I just wanta say tat I am not playin a fool or taking ppl for granted or simply just be with someone cos I am desperate etc... I guess some of my closer friends around me knew wat type of person I am.. Maybe I kinda touched easily by someone? Maybe I one tat dun know how to reject a person? Maybe I one tat fuck-up? I must really reflect myself again in the mirror... There no room for mistakes again.. DEFINITELY NO!

When I think back about it, maybe wat rx and the others say is true after all.. When things really happen between both party, it is not easy to be back together again.. Rx asked me if I really did like min min when we were back together the second time and I told her yes, definitely had some feelings for her.. But these few days make me realise that I not into this r/s as what I expected.. Not the type of r/s feelings that normal couple is talkin about. I just know that I hurted her yet again.. I REALLY SORRY.

Maybe up till now, I still have not get over her, 050605? Memories still embedded in my heart... But I know she had another person in her life already..

Why must we always lose something in our life, then we will know how important they matter to us?

Mistake*

I hurted her yet again. It has nothin to do with her but me! Happen once, happen twice... Wat de hell am I really thinking? =( I am sorry min min... REALLY sorry.. No matter how mani times I say it, it wont help and make ya feel beta... BUT this is the onli thing I can say to you..

Time to grow up and move on ZM... I cant carry on like tis right? I have to learn to move on from the past.. Before accepting a new rs, I should have completely let go of the previous rs! I fail to do so and thus, resulted in this situation again! Been pondering over this for sometime and the best situation is for us to seperate.

Sometime I just wonder why am I such an emo guy? I dun think that how a guy should be... No offence to the females but I just such a failure. Failure in my 3 yr rs, Failure in this rs..... When will I learn to be wise and not to hurt other ppl again? Given the chance again, I wanta turn back time and go back to 18yr old - when there is no such thing as rs problem for me! haiz..

RX, HOON n PJ thank for your concern.. I really appreciate it... =)

Time to go to bed I guess.. I should not be thinking so much now...

能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了...

THE Facts about love*

*You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.

*Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.

*Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.

*Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.

*Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.

*Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.

*Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.

*Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.

If Love is painful,

And tortures us so much,

Why do we Love?

WHY?

Simply because when we love someone, feelings of LOVE overcome our pain and sufferings.

when YOU are GONE*

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear

to always get me through the day

And make it ok

I miss you

3DAYS MC*

Went for soccer yesterday night over at Kallang cage and got injured in the process again! WTF lol.. Just recovered from my ankle strain and now my whole leg 'armed' with scratches and swollen muscle... I guess the THAI player tat injured me knew I pose a potential threat to them and tat why he injured me lol.. haha... BUt I really lucky tat he was not wearing a boots with metal studs if not I really gone case... If he life his leg higher a bit towards me knee cap, I CONFRIM DIE!!! Blessin in disguise for me le lol.. PhEw... Anyway the cage was nice and fun to play with.. Yesterday football at the cage was like Singapore vs Thailand lol.. hahaa. =) GG dropped by with his gf after their dinner or supper lol.. He confirm got urge to play one lol.. Tat pathetic look on his face say it all... sorry dude.. My heart goes out to you.. heee..

Thanks to yx and some of the guys who gave me medical attention straight away.. The doc tat I went to see just now said that there was no infection for me leg and tat I need to rest more and lift up my left leg highes for proper blood circulation... She gave me 3days of MC lol.. Lift up my left leg? Wat can I possbily do when I lift my legs up? watch tv whole day ah? >_<

So anyone wanta play MJ pls come up to West side play with me k? Bored to stay at home one lol.. =( PLS DUN ASK ME PLAY SOCCER OR SHOPPING HOR! I will be back soon..

BTW Feel free to visit me! hahaa

The circle show my swollen muscle lol.. =(

ANNI WITH BEBE*

Celebrated our first month anni on monday 15/06/09! Thanks bebe for the cake u made for me and also the small little gift... =) Woke up at around 11plus and proceed back to my house so I could changed to a new set of clothes.. Debated with bebe over where to go b4 we decided to go over to Bishan J8.. Been ages since I set my foot there... =)

Went for lunch cum dinner over at Pasta Mania before spending rest of the time walking around... =) Went over COTTON ON and bought a berm and one short for bebe.. Been sometime since I last brought stuff for myself in SINGAPORE lol.. haha... We also catch a movie - GHOST OF GF's PAST @9.30pm. It was a superd movie.. I love the story plot - A bachelor cum playboy is haunted by the ghosts of his past girlfriends at his younger brother's wedding. The ghosts bring Connor (Matthew McConaughey) back to his past, present and lonely future to discover the point in which he became a total womanizing jerk! How nice to have so many woman in your life hor? I kinda jealous.. hahaa... Left J8 around 11plus pm after the show and went back home.. Quite a tiring day lol.. haha.. Anyway thanks bebe for the presents and stuffs tat ya done for me... hugs! =)

Last weekend*

Here I am bloggin again while waiting for my dinner and bathroom for my shower! =) I been quite "lagging" in my blog le lol.. unlike last time when I use to blog everyday then every two days then every 3 or 4days.. Now it is every week lol =( How am I going to improve my ENGLISH if I never blog everyday right? hahaha.... Last week activities as follow:

11/06/09 (THURS)
Soccer in camp after work with my camp mates and warehouse personnel... Managed to have around 4 teams playin soccer lol.. It was exciting playing with some of my colleagues whom had just returned from detachment.. I almost sprained my leg lol.. Luckily just a muscle pull and not twisted! PHEW... Midnight MJ over at xin yong's house from 11plus pm to next day 6am lol =) His house layout and furniture dam modern lifestyle lol... Mark, Gary n me were very impressed with his house which cost a wobbly 500k!!!! His house and my house quite similar - Both also 5ROOM EXECUTIVE but YET cost DOUBLE mine lol.. *_*''''''' Nevertheless, won around 2obucks which was just enough to cover my MAC's breakfast and Petrol =) Home around 7am..

12/06/09 (FRIDAY)
MJ again in the morning! Slept for few hours before going down east side again! Met up with tine tine at 11plus before picking PJ up.. Suppose to start playin at 1pm but due to tine taking long time to make up, our timing schedule delay lol... =( Went over to wei min house to play cos tat GG knocked out liao lol.. Super lousy la! Play one overnight MJ then cant wake up liao... BTH.. Lose around 30 bucks lol.. Never wear my red underwear and red shirt then lose jia lat jia lat!!! THe night before wear liao lol.. I not being superstitious but it is A FACT! I suppose RED BRING ME LUCK.. =) Haa.. PJ & TINE dun cos ya all won a little of my money then ya all avoid me! haha.. MEt up and play AGAIN again AGAIN!!!!!

13/06/09 (SATURDAY)
I sat out the parade as I injured my leg lol.. However, I still had to go for Parade Training to look after the other's belongings lol.. =( Hiaz.. Suprisingly, training end early @ 5pm and we were able to dismiss early.. Next week training may stretch to as late as 8plus or 9 plus cos we will be going over to MARINA BAY PLATFORM le lol.. >_< Met bebe and her mum after my training at TM before going back to my house.. Suppose to play MJ with gary and his gf but were cancelled last min thus bebe and I stayed at my place to watch DVDs lol =) MEt up with rx around 1am at ECP after sending bebe back home.. Been sometime since I last saw rx! =) Do alot of catchin up and we slack till 4plus before I home sweet home! Dun worry rx! IN THE END, everything will fall into place nicely for you.. SEE ya for our movie session and tok cock session soon..

14/06/09 (SUNDAY)
MJ again over at roger's place with wei min and GG making the trip up to west side.. Dam wei min play one till "west" then rushed off cos he got wedding dinner to attend! Nevertheless, we guys (roger drove and GG n me sat his car) went over to TIONG BAHRU hawker center there for our dinner with Ken foo joining us also... 4 person dinner and we had 28 chui kueh, one plate of chee cheong fun, two bowl of prawn noodles, one plate of oyster, one grill and cheese chicken cutlet and 4 cup of soya bean!! ATE TILL DAM DAM DAM FULL... On the way back to roger's place to play MJ, I feel like vomitting in his car lol.. *_*'''' GG's gf and bebe join us over at roger's place too... Play MJ till 1plus and I lose around 15bucks.. No good No good.. =( Stayed over bebe's house after our supper at the PRATA SHOP at west cost there... Some one again dun know wat time sleep lol.. BTH.. >_<

Malaysia TRIP on SUN!

Went to Taman Perling yesterday with my family and my aunt's family lol.. Been quite sometime since I last went malaysia! =) Set off around 11plus and we reached at around 12plus.. First time set my foot in Taman Perling and Bukit Indah.. The whole area is undergoing upgrading and my uncle told me tat this whole area is classify under new area development lol.. There going to be more shopping centers!

Went to eat bak ku tei for lunch and it was mouthwatering and scrumptious! No wonder alot of ppl say malaysia is well-known for it delicious foods lol... I totally agree NOW! =) Went over to Bukit Indah Shopping center where there were shops like JUSCO, F.O.S, Branded Outlet Store, Padini etc etc... Brought quite alot of clothes (one berm and 4 shirts). Luckily I came along if not my mum never buy those clothes for me le lol.. hahaa... =) My mum still love me so much afterall! x.o x.o MUM! >_<''''

One incident caught my attention when I was in the fitting room trying out some shirts.. A mum ask one of the sale girl for her number on behalf of her's son lol!! Wat suprise me the most was tat her's son was just beside her lol... WTH!! Nowadays mummy also can help son to ask for number from gals? Wat an erratic society! I dun think my mum will ever help me get number from some one else lol.. hahaa... Went for dinner over at Queenway Park and there were a whole street of foods stalls lol!!! Really enjoy the Nasi Lemak which I brought.. Chicken wing was dam superd! yummmy yummy.. Home sweet home after tat.. I cant wait to go there again lol..

GG pls make arrangement to go there together after ya exam k? This time drive ya car! =)

Went out to pick bebe after her company's dinner at geylang even though I quite tired already.. See! Dun keep sayin I dun care or neglect you lol bebe! =) Went over to her place and stay over for the night lol. Super tired and was alseep less then an hour upon reachin her house while she could still use the computer and blog and chat online lol ( dun know till wat time ). Went back to my place around 1plus just now..

Now, she sleepin soundly on my bed while I here bloggin!

Sleep also must use soft toy to cover her face? BTH lol.. >_<

So fast SUNDAY!*

Been quite a random week for me... Same old thing of workin on tue to fri and parade training on sat lol! =( Anyway soccer with mark, darrel and wei min over at simei on MONDAY's evening and dinner with bebe n rayna over at JURONG after my soccer session...

Met up with gary over at geylang for supper with bebe and rayna on WEDNESDAY. Rayna kept following us le lol.. hahaaa. Where wo go, we sure bring him go one lei.. I beta then his real brother lol! Really tc of him lei... =) Soccer with Camp mates and ST people at SSC after work on THURSDAY.. First time play with them and I kinda impressed with them lol... Their skills not bad for their age le lol.. BUT i think they more impress with me lo.. hahaa.. =)

MJ with wei min, GG n darrel over at wei min's place after my cascade briefin on FRIDAY's morning.. Met bebe first before going down to wei min's place.. When i reached, the rest haven even come lol... BTH!!! =( Went back to west side for dinner with GG before proceeding home to rest for parade the next day.. HIAZ... a bit no life! Nevertheless, yesterday is ONE OF THE HOTTEST DAY EVER during my parade training! F**K lol.. standing under the sorching sun with a rifle!!!! One more week of training and we off to marina platfrom! I suppose there is even hotter with such a big surface area... siao liao lol.. Pls call me DARKY DAVE next time.. =(

BEBE: Sorry tat i didnt have much time for u cos I just simply love to sleep and sleep! hahaa.. Hugs.
PJ & QE & HOON: pls dun 4get our MJ session hor!!! & I never take u all as spare tyres lol.. =)
RX: I know ya kinda busy recently but meet up soon k? see ya
GG: Good luck for ya exam dude.. work hard n faster earn big money! Then u can buy ya TOYOTA cefiro with ya gf!!! I wont 4get ya BIG DAY in JANUARY though! haa
PEARLY: Be strong in Aussie k? I know ya can and I cant wait to see u again! TC n miss ya!

OFF to malaysia later with my family and relatives! =)

Updating of blog*

I been upgrading my blog and FINALLY, I added my mini IPOD into my blog! NICE RIGHT? =) I will upload more of my FAV songs into the playlist and everyone can listen lol..

Another boring MODAY for me! Nevertheless, I just finished watchin MONSTER vs ALIENS online. Quite a nice and funny show! I like the character BOB - The blue little sticky, elastic, jelly-like monster! The cast include a 49 feet tall SUSAN, Dr. Cockroach PHD, the half-ape half-fish MISSING LINK and BOB. Story bout how 5 monsters fight off the aliens from invading planet Earth!

Till now, I still haven finish watchin drama like Gossip Girls season 2, Harper Island, 老婆大人2, movies like terminator 2, night in the musem 2! Gota finished them soon....

Back to watchin show again! ciao!

POKER FACESS on SAT*

Finally going to meet up with KEN LOKE after he MIA for one month plus from our group lol.. =) Happi BELATED BIRTHDAY DUDE! HAPPY 22TH.. WELCOME TO THE 22YR OLD FAMILY! =) NDP training in the afternoon as usual and training ended around 7pm.. Quite early compared to the other few training tat we had lol..

Supposed to send my friends back home to the west but rx needed a lift from me. As her BFF, I went down to her place to fetch her and send her to Tam before proceeding back to the west to send the rest of the guys back home.. Rx, I know sat is the day ya been waiting for some time, but also dun need to put such a strong perfume ma! Ya perfume made me and my guys friends all giddy lol! hahaa.. Send two of my friends to teck whye before picking bebe up at limbang, where she met shirely for dinner.. Poor samuel had to follow me from tam to teck whye to cck before he could go back home! haha.. =) In the end, i could not meet gary and the rest for dinner.. SOrry guys, But i still met ya all after tat right? =) Instead of meetin them at 7.30pm, I could only met them at 10pm at Gu You's place... >_<>

Poker all the way till 2.30 am before leaving Gu You's place.. Won 20 bucks.. Hmmm not bad considering tat I am not tat good with Poker lol.. Still prefer MJ then poker though.. =) Thanks bebe for accompanying me lol.. I knew ya kinda tired but ya still made effort to spend time with me.. But I not tat bad either right? Spend time with ya after POKER session lol.. =) hehe..

Some of the pics tat we taken:

DREAMLAND at around 5plus again! =)

FriDAY MJ session*

Arranged MJ session with rx and eunice and the other kaki suppose to be xin yong but he was unable to make it at the last min and thus came my spare tyre, ROGER ANG! hahaaa... Thanks for being availabe at the right time, right day =)

Before meetin up with them, went down to school with bro to collect his result slip.. OMG, Pass only one subject.. How the hell he did tat, i really dun know lol.. His Co - form teacher asked me did I supervise him and I told her tat in our family, each one of us is on our own! hahaa... Model ANSWER lol.. =) Anyway he big enough to think for himself already thus, I not going to interfere in his school life.. He still kinda scary for me though.. >_<

Went down to Orchard to meet rx and eunice before our MJ session.. Miss eunice dun think ya meet me one day for MJ then ya can MIA again hor! It ya holidays now! Friends are equally important right? haa.. Proceed to my place after sending rx's sis back. Waited for BIG HEAD to come before commencing lol.. It the first time i played with eunice lol... She quite a 'nice' player as she kept feedin me with tiles, especially 'ka long' tiles.. haaa.. THANKS alot.. Managed to win around 45 bucks.. =) Can cover the payment of my SUMMON lol.. swee! thank BIG HEAD for contributing much of his money to me.. =)

Send rx and eunice back after MJ in my dad's vios.. Who will be so stupid to drive his own car when going on a long journey lei? Haha.. SMART me! After sending them to their respective locations, procced to circular road to pick bebe up after her heart-to-heart talk with shirely lol.. Reached home around 5am and I still had parade the following day! I DISLIKE marchin under the HOT SUN!!!! HELP me =(

HERE COME MY Night-life stlye again!

MARKY's Chalet*

It been some time since i blog again.. Guess been MIA for too long ah? =) Here I am again bloggin on my MODAY OFF DAY! Last week had been a hetic week for me.. Busy clearing my DAY off and busy gambling at MaRk 's ORD chalet.. =)

24/5 - 25/5
Went over to MARK's chalet on sunday with the rest of the dudes at Pasir Ris Downtown. Been quite a while since we last had a chalet together.. Hmmm the last time was during my belated Birthday celebration in FEB ba! BBQ and playin MJ all the way lol.. I stayed over with roger, rayna, ken foo on sunday.. Went over to visit gary on monday morning after his operation at changi Hospital while roger went for his MA too... Finally GG, no more op for you ah? I know ya been through alot but dun let this setback make u withdraw from playin soccer again! Shall see ya running up n down in hmmm maybe OCT? ya comeback DAY! =) Lastly no more VOMMITTING ah? =) Ken bring his WII to the chalet too! I suck at tennis lol... sian 1/2

26/5
Went back home on tue morning to rest while roger, mark and his gf went fishing.. Dam shag out cos had not been sleepin well at the chalet lol.. Went back to mark chalet again since they wanta play MJ.. Before going to the chalet, I picked min min up as she comin with me too.. =) Been so long since we met right? Seriously how we end up back together was amazing up? hahaa.. =) Since we back together, I guess everything will be sorted out by itself ba! haa.. Went over to my granny's place to pass her some dumplings tat my mum and aunt made.. Supposed to be a short visit, turned to a very long visit and I was late to meet the rest as I need to send my granny down to visit her cousin's son whom is in Singapore to study... Down to chalet after tat for dinner.. Guess the rest of them was shocked to see min min with me though! haaa.. The rest of the event not going to elaborate lol.. Definitely enjoy myself at the chalet.. Lose around 50 bucks in MJ... =( Plus another SUMMON! lose 100 bucks at chalet.. F**K Roger dun know worship wat god.. Win so much money!

NDP*

Check through the photos taken by various photographer during NDP trainin on sat.. I managed to see mySELF =) Quite smart lookin ah?

Can see me not? I AT THE BACK... with the 2SG rank one! =)

Another day*

Slept a few hours just now i am kinda felt I recharaged again! =) Anyway parade trainin was relatively slow - paced and relax just now till to the weather.. Training ended early after the 1.6km road march. Even though I has only close to 3 hours of sleep the night before, I did not really feel the aftermath effect lol - Hmmm but I almost fell asleep (when standing lol) when RSM was giving his speech. >_< Had KFC for lunch and luckily the night before, I did not had tat for my supper... If not I sure dun have much appetite lol..

On Friday, the guys - wei min, roger & gary, dropped over my place for MJ after my work. Been some time since I last saw roger. Even though we stayed near to each other, we did not get to see each other often lol.. MJ all the way till 8 plus pm before GG need to leave on his 'mission' again.. =) Had dinner with dad downstair before comin home to rest first...

Met rx after her work for movie session at cine. Drove my dad's car out and I feel headache-ish by the time we reached cine. Btw, rx was the driver lol.. haa.. I think both of us not use to the vios's brake that why we tend to step hard (my aveo need to step really hard ma) and brake abrupty lol.. Must get use to the 'sensitive' brake really soon! >_< Anyway we had a hard time debating over which movie to watch lol and in the end we catched 'Angels and Demons' at 2am. It was definitely a nice show as anchor by alot of ppl... Alot of twist and occuring incidents that really catch my attention lol.. =) Nice show!

Finished movie at around 4plus am and left for home adter sending rx back.. Reached home around 5plus. Intially I was thinking bout not sleepin since I would only have a few hours of sleep.. But as usual, all talk but no action lol... 'Knocked' out close to 6am... zzzZZZZzzzz

Now, I awake and trying to find something to do.. >_<

Granny BACK!

Half day off yesterday as I went to airport to fetch my granny who was back from China yesterday. Left camp during lunch time and went home to rest first before her arrival flight at 3.15pm. On my way down to east side, I picked up rx (birthday gal for the day) to work too.. Sent her down to her work's place before picking up uncle and head down to Changi Airport T1. So happy to see my Ah Ma lol.. She put on weight le lol.. Must be eat and sleep everyday.. hahaa... Anyway it really good to see her back in Singapore. Since i was young, she was the one tat looked after me till i was 6 or 7 yrs old.. Definitely my r/s with her was super close =) Welcome back ah ma.. too bad she dun know how to read english, if not i sure show her my blog lol.... tsk tsk

Suppose to have lunch with Ah Ma and uncle. But due to miscommunication of one driving to bedok, the other driving to aljunied, lunch was cancelled lol.. >_< simple thing also can go wrong... BTH... Picked GG up before going down to ECP for soccer at the CAGE. Been sometime since we played there lol... Great to see issac coming down too.. Long time no see dude.. =) Soccer till 7pm plus before going to Katong with GG and Nick Thai to have dinner at the MEE SUA stall.. Quite nice though.. First time ate lol... =) Back to granny place to chit chat (she asked me alot of stuff bout my r/s lol) a while before HOME SWEET HOME.

Anyway i kinda short out my thoughts already.. Wat she say really make sense. Everything is too late already and i gota wake up now.. Watever happen, me & her is over.. She has her own life and I not going to live in the past now! Thanks everyone.. I guess i really woken up now.. Wat remain now will only be: MEMORIES. But i really appreciate that you called me to ask how my ah ma was doing... Thanks 050605.

Lastly, been msging with min min today and after wat has happened, we are still on talking terms. No matter wat, I still sorry for wat has happened though.. Hope ya beta and happier now.

REST TIME =)

没有你的每一天

爱著你的每一天

你就是我的世界

那时候还以为

我就爱这一遍

没有你的每一天

快乐离我好遥远

心已随你走了

还能用什么感觉

我舍不得睁开眼睛

害怕身边没有你

也许在梦境里

是我们最近的距离

RaNdOm*

Wake up from my sleep and i woke up feelin emo and sad. So much has happened since I broke up with her, 050605. So much has happened since i hurt her, 150309. After going through so much, I thought i really know how to picked myself up. But somehow random memories and moments 'pushed' me back to the past. The past of court-ship, past of poly days, past of our oversea trips, past of all things tat we both enjoyed doing.

When ya left me, ya really left me... leaving me just like tis.. I am here to fend for myself. Why am i still thinkin bout ya when ya heart has already left me? Wat make zm still thinking of all those special moments? IS THIS REMINISCE or HOW I REALLY FEEL FROM MY HEART? Onli I know it myself..

Look like I still learning how to move on, how to make myself stronger, how to let go of a r/s tat i regret letting go... I made mistakes and when I really wanta do something and salvage it, ya gone just like tat.. Look like today is an EMO-ING day for me...

Put those thought aside, I making use of this time to wish my good frien aka best pal aka movie kaki aka supper kaki, AMBER LIN RX a very very happy 22nd birthday!! Ya finally same age as me liao! Wishing you all the best in the years to come. May your days and nights be filled with happiness and beautiful colors and well-wishes! Even though ya one yr older, dun need to worry bout being old as age is nothing but just a NUMBER lol.. =) You can still party hard lol..I also take tis time to say a big Thank-You to u for being there for me when i was down and at the lowest point of my life... And also those advises that ya share with me.. Not 4getting the show 'gossip girls' tat ya recommend me to watch! I really appreciate tat dude! 祝你 生日快乐 =)

Look like I should prepare myself to ZzZzZzZz early, so I wont anyhow think again... Night everyone!

Monday OFF*

Spend my monday off quite meaningfully lol.. Quite lazy to go out but still met up with hoon and qiao e and it been ages since i last saw miss tong! Decided to play MJ over at wei min's place. Met them around 5plus at Tampines and picked them up before going over to his place. QIAO E had a new english name lol.. Carmen TONG lol... hahaha... Made me laughed all de way lol.. BTH... >_<

AS ususal, all nonsenses and jokes surrounded us lol.. With hoon hoon and the self proclaimed 'Carmen Tong' around, how can there be peace right? haha.. Anyway we played 2 rounds of MJ all de way from 6plus to 1am in the morning lol.. We played 2o/40cent and i still managed to win 5bucks dollars lol.. Yesterday really dam in luck lol... I wont 4get when there was one round tat when i opened my tiles, there was already 5 pair of similar tiles inside! I managed to game 'qi dui zhi' lol... Haha.. there were alot of time when i 'zhi mo' also lol.. ^_^ My luck is BACK once AGAIN!!! WeWeWeWe..... Wont 4get those jokes along the way when we playin lol.. and an 'unforgettable' incident lol. The gals knew it first before tellin me... >_<

Anyway sorry GG never joined you all for dinner ar Seletar! winning money more important then spending money on dinner lol... haha.. I knew you guys sure miss my pressence there right? By the time we finished out MJ, we went for our dinner cum supper at Blk 85 lol.. 'Carmen Tong' drove my car from wei min place to BLK 85 lol.. She just got her license onli lol ! Shawn and me (who were sitting at the back) kept helping her look out for traffic lol.. I think we both more paranoid then her lei.. haahaa.. She sat all de way in front when she drove lol.. First time I sat behind in my car and there was so much space for me! Think she must be feelin nervous so she shifted infront lol.. hahaa.. We reached Bedok in one piece! Dun worry QE! With more driving experience, i think ya will be a beta driver lol.. Train more on ya parkin lol.. hahaaa.. Girl's main weak point? I really suppose so, as rx & sis trace also took quite long to park a car too.. Opss no offences wor!

Can you imagine us eating dinner at 1am plus in the wee hours.. Everyone dam hungry lol.. Order quite alot of food lol.. Hahaha... For MJ, we 'tar han' all the way till 1 plus then eat lei.. See how addictive MJ can be! Wondering who is the person that invented/discovered MJ lol.. WHOEVER YOU ARE, JUST WANTA SAY A BIG THANK YOU! for bringing so much joy for me. =) Sent them home before home sweet home for me! Btw i also strike toto lol! hahaha.. 3o dollars onli lol.. sian 1/2.. But at least beta then nothin right? LUCKY DAY ahead for me? I certainly hope so....

My GG going to go for surgery next MONDAY again lol.. At such a young age and he had to go under the 'knife' 3 or 4 times already.. PITY pity him.. I be there for you dude. Doctor just need cut open and drill hole for you.. Dun need scared k? Be brave.. >_< I say so easy lol but the pain he undergo i really wont know one.. I visit you after ya ops... Shower ya with 'BROTHERLY love'... *Smiles*

MY GRANDMA IS back from china TMR! cant wait to see her after one year!

Happy DAYs AHEAD. =)

SUNdae trip to ZOO zoo ZOO*

Woke up at 9am and i haven saw rx's msg or call lol.. Confirmed she still sleeping lol! Called her and she really still sleeping.. >_< Luckily she managed to wake up lol. Suppose i enver wake up early and called her, i think both of us sure wont wake up till late afternoon! While waiting for rx to come pick me up, i went down to buy some food and drinks lol.. Zoo's drink is expensive one lol.. =)

Luckily rx changed the timing to 11am if not we sure late in meeting adeline and her bf lol.. Reached zoo around 10.45am. Went for KFC (our brunch) after collecting our zoo tixs. Weather was really hot when we were walking around from point to point lol.. The zoo really looked like it had undergo many major changes.. We went around lookin at the different animals and taking photos.. The baboon had really big red backside lol. We spent some time tryin to captured photos of their red backside.. haha.. Proboscis monkey really had a dam big nose lol.. First time in my life tat I ever ever saw it... I think some of you might not even seen it right? hahaa... Majority of the animals can stone very very long lol! Look like they had master the skills of stoning in the zoo lol.. Stone and dun move at all.. siao siao..

Sat 160509*

NDP training as usual in the morning after a 2 weeks break. Dam tiring and hot lol.. At one point of time, training had to stop due to Weather CAT 1. Most of us were afraid that we had to come back on sun as we had only trained for half an hour before RSM called us to go under the shelter.. Dam sian if were to come back SUNDAY lol... =(

Luckily darks clouds and thunder cleared away after an hour... Training resumed! Weee.. First time training and you could see so mani 'happy' faces... hahaa.. The sun was dam hot in the afternoon lol.. I really cant imagine how 'black' i will be come August lei! Finished training at 5 plus and by the time we were dismissed from PLAB, it was already 7.20pm. Went back home immediately as I am going to meet wei min they all for MJ later..

Before MJ, i went to pick darrrel and shawn and nick thai up before going over to wei min's place.. Kinda tired but once we started MJ, i dun really feel the tiredness anymore lol.. haha.. Only MJ and SOCCER can make my tiredness go away! =) MJ all the way to 2plus am before we called it a day as I need to meet rx to pass her my car for tmr zoo trip. Shawn managed to win quite a sum of money.. Hmmm around 70 bucks.. I managed to lose 25bucks lol.. Never wear red colour then like tat liao.. >_<

Sent darrel and shawn back to darrel's place before going down to town. Along the wat to darrel's place, we encountered a police road block! Dam jia lat.. I faster wind down my dam dark window before stopping in front lol.. Luckily never on the below exterior light. As i was driving quite fast. The policeman told me next time see a road block must slow down and dun drive so fast.. The next thing i heard was he told me to move to the left.. So I thought I just need to move my car to the left before going off ma.. BUT they guys in my car told me tat the policeman want me to move my car to the left to let them check lol!!! Siao liao lol.. i drove off just like tat... >_< Dam scared lol.. I kept lookin back at the rear mirror to see if any of them came chasing me lol.. FARK up experience tat i would never 4get... *_*

Along the way to meet rx, i wind down my windows and drove lol.. Scared still got some more road block lol.. Saw eunice accompanying rx when i reached lol.. Am i abit late? haaa... So long never see Eunice lol... Now tat ya exams are over, ya beta make some time to meet up! Remember wat pearl told you? TC of me lol... hahaa.. RX sent me back home before she drove my car back home.. Home at 3plus am.. Was planning not to sleep as I need to wake up at 8 plus le ma.. However, by the time i tar han till 5am, my eyes cant take it le...

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